DEPRESSION

Goodbye for now

   Another amazing experience comes to an end. This book is one of my biggest secret. The experiences I wrote in it, was the first time I ever opened up or talked about them. For a long time I wanted to open up and help others with my experience but I just couldn't gather up the courage to do so.
   Depression in my life was something I never expected to experience or go through it. But once I experienced it I never imagined to escape it. It was hard to experience it and even more harder to make out of it. To live through it.
   But it was the time, I felt like someone slapped me. And that slap made me see the things we don't. The things we ignore. The things we don't understand.  The things we for no reason why have made a taboo. I wouldn't say that my battle with depression was the hardest.  But I will say it was hard and it just kept getting harder until I planned to fight it. It was hard for me. It kept gets harder. But it wasn't as hard as many others.
   If there was one thing that depression taught me. I would say it was that no matter what the moment is, cherish it. Find the smallest happiness or positive point in the situation or in the moment and cherish it. Remember that moment of happiness. Always remember that every action and no matter whatever it is. There are always two sides. You always get two options. Sometimes you chose the wrong one even sooner than you had expected. There is no going back. But there is always a chance you will get. A chance to change everything. A chance to change your opinion. A chance to clean your mess up. You always get a chance. And it's not anyone or anybody who gives it. It's you who gives it to yourself. It your life that gives you chance.
   Change is many times good for you. Your health. Your heart. Your mind. But it isn't always good. Sometimes evil finds it's way to you even in the most pleasurable moments. And by evil I don't mean demons. I mean something you have been trying to avoid. Sometimes ignoring small things in your life or even in daily life. Can cause you a lot later. 
   The actual reason behind this book was that I wanted to open up about because I was tired of staying silent on this topic. I was tired of explaining people that you are not only one who went through this. I wanted to also tell others that ignoring help in such a situation can be the most stupidest decision.
   I know how quite literally no one will read this book. But if someone gave this book a chance. I want them to know you are not alone. We all are here. And there will always be someone.
   Also my apologies for the many grammatical mistakes you are going to stumble upon or have already stumbled upon. My first language isn't English. So I am very sorry about all those mistakes.
   I am currently writing this book in a pandemic. And I know many of you are once again being dragged in that shithole. So if literally anybody wants to talk to me. I am always available. Feel free to connect.
   On that note I guess it's goodbye for now. Let's meet most probably next year. Just remember that even on a night without the moon. There's still a sparkle on the sky. The stars still shine. There is never complete darkness.

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