Thank you... (Ateez FF)

Behind a mask

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Y/N POV
I was done giving a tour to Ateez since school just ended. And to be honest it wasn't so bad I had a few laughs here and there but it really never satisfied me. Maybe because I haven't gone a lot of attention or anything like that in awhile. but "It's fine it doesn't affect me" I told myself when deep down it really affected but I just have to suck it up and move on at least right?
As I was walking out of the school I heard someone called my name which I could tell was hongjoong. A part of me wanted to turn around but I just couldn't but instead just stand there.

Hongjoong POV
Me and the boys wanted to go eat something since school ended. but mingi kept telling me to ask Y/n to come with us, but it wouldn't hurt to ask right?!
"Y/n!!" I shouted
She didn't move which is weird I might as well just walk up to here.
"Hey y/n" I said

"Hey" replied y/n

" so I was wondering if you wanted to go eat with me and the boys, but if you can't it's fine" I asked

"Umm... sure" said Y/m

"Okay let's go the boys are waiting" I said while grabbing her wrist

"Owwww" said y/n  while  grabbing her arm which only hid her deepest secrets

"I'm sorry..are you okay?! Let me see" I said in a worried tone 

"It's okay I'm fine let's just go okay" insisted y/n

" Okay ..." i replied
I knew she wasn't okay her face said it all but if she said she is fine then i guess she is fine.

No one's POV
Y/n and hongjoong got into the car and y/n sat in the back near the window with yeosang and seonghwa while everyone else was in the front. The car ride was a bit loud of San and Wooyoung's loud laugh and everyone else talking ( I both have there laughs combine 😂🤡) but y/n was just looking outside of the window thinking of the worse of how her parents were gonna kill her.
since he wasn't gonna be there to take care of her sister when there was two other kids there.  with her which her cousins. But she didn't care at this point all she could think of is just dying.
Until a tear rolled down her cheek which she quickly wiped off so she didn't get noticed.

Yunho's POV
We arrived at the sushi restaurant and entered  and soon started ordering and I noticed that y/n say in the end and was just silent so I decided to sit next to her.
" is it okay if I sit next to you" I asked

"Yea sure" she said

"Hey guys should be get to know y/n and she get to know us?" I yelled so everyone could hear me

"Okay " yelled everyone else except for
y/n

Y/n POV

Just great I said to myself I can't let them know how horrible my life is cause at the end they will just not care about me like always. But i guess i have to lie about my life being fine and everything once again 🤧
So while we waited for the food everyone started going and i got to know them more and what there position was in the group. ( rappers,vocalist etc.)  and it was finally mine turn and I was not okay at this point but I just didn't show it.

" well my name is y/n I have brothers from both sides of my family and one younger sister and I like to dance and listen to kpop" I said using my signature fake

"That's cool you should dance with us one day" yelled San who was a bit farther away

I just nodded my head and just In time the food came and we started eating and yesterday I really didn't eat anything and I wasn't hungry today but I didn't want them to worried so I just ate it silently.

Yeosang's POV
We just finished eating sushi and it was time to drop off y/n which was sad cause if was fun and I got to know her even though she only talked for a lil bit. We started going through a neighborhood which meant that we were close to dropping off y/n. I look over her and noticed that she was shaking and looked like she was scared which was weird but I decided not to put so much thought into it. We all said 'goodbye' and left.

Y/n POV
I knew that I was going to be in so much trouble tonight I could feel it i didn't want to get out of the van but I had to. Once they left I entered the house and saw that my parents faces and that my cousins weren't here and I could tell they were going to beat me and lecture me as always. 

"What the hell were you thinking leaving your sister here by herself since your cousins didn't come today. You know that this is your responsibility to take care of your sister when we are at work. Did u not think about yourself sister at all how selfish, arrogant bitch you are what is wrong with you I didn't make you like this you dumb bitch" yelled my mom
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At this point I just started crying of all those hurtful words that were coming out of her mouth. I couldn't help but just feel weak and hanging my head low. I knew they were going to beat me now which they did right now. I felt my hands being slapped so hard along with my cheek. And a belt hitting me countless times

" just leave y/n I can't deal with you right or see you" yelled my mom

And with that I ran to my room and locked the door and needed to cut myself it was the only way to calm me down. I just couldn't stop the tears from falling i went towards my bed and pulled a box were I keep my blade in and other things. Just started cutting myself It just felt good and my tears 💧mixed with the blood  dripping from my arm I did one cut after another and another until i did 20 cuts. I cleaned up the mess and hid my blade and looked at myself in the mirror.
" well looks like there is a mark on my cheek and a few bruises on my arms and legs. Look pathetic I am why do I even exist no body cares about me ima mess" I said to myself in the mirror

I got into bed and just cried the whole night thinking about my horrible life. And  think why I bothering living at this point. :(