Thank you... (Ateez FF)

FEAR 😞

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I know I haven't been posting lately because of school but once i'm done with his week or next weeks school work I might post a new chapter. 

Y/N POV 

we got to school and I was the first one out and I just needed to leave I couldn't face yeosang or anyone right now but at the same time I had to keep my head up and smile like always.                           I went straight to my locker and put my things way and go to the bathroom to wipe of the blood from he cuts earlier so I won't get noticed or anything. 

I locked myself in the stall once I rolled up my sleeve blood dripping from my arm from the deep cuts which only made me more satisfied with a few tears rolling down my ugly beaten face. 

" gosh I need to wipe this off fast" I whispered 

I wiped off all the blood from my arm and wrapped my arm with it so it can stop bleeding and not blow my cover. once im done I walked out of the stall to see my "friends" there so I just hurry up and wash my hands and walk out and heading straight to class as I was walking there I noticed yeosang standing by the doorway of the classroom I knew I was fucked up. I took the courage to head straight inside with a fake  smile so he won't notice but oh boy I was wrong. 

I felt him grab my bleeding arm as I hissed in pain and pulling to a corner near the classroom

" are you okay, im sorry let me see" he asked 

" n-no I-i'm  fine" I stuttered 

" please talk to me please" he pouted 

" I'm fine, really" I told him as I walked toward the classroom 

I sat In my desk and let this this terrible school day start 

fFINALLY  after 6 classes it was lunch and I went to my table with my "friends" and just let myself be a invisible. and rest my head on the table 

Yeosang's pov 

I knew she wasn't okay in the first place but why I only met her for a few days but I felt like we have known each other long just by looking at her I knew she wasn't okay from the beginning I saw her but she would always try to put a smile on her face. I need to know more I need to know why, what isn't she telling me. 

I kept looking back at her at times to see if she was okay but once I looked at her I noticed she  was leaving and I knew she wasn't going to the bathroom it was across from the cafeteria so I decide to follow her and noticed she was at a small courtyard with bushes, flowers and a tree surrounding the courtyard. I walked in and sit next to her on a bench and  look at her for a moment noticing all of her features before speaking. 

" why are you here is everything okay" I asked quietly 

" I just needed some fresh air" she said 

" ahh okay, but before I ask please... I know your not okay" I gently asked 

" okay fine yes im not okay there is just family problems right now that's all" she said 

" oh im sorry-" i got cut off by her saying 

"no really its fine it will end soon" she said while smiling 

that was all I needed to hear I guess she really was okay. but what he didn't think that it was just some small excuse and a huge big lie.

<AFTER SCHOOL>

Y/N POV 

I didn't want this day to end I'm scared to go home what if my parents are there, what if they will come home mad. there were so many ' what if's' that I didn't want to imagine as I got on the bus I tried to calm myself down and let my anxiety calm down                                                                                    I forgot to tell you I have anxiety disorder and other stuff but that's for next time 

once I saw my house I felt my body numb I just didn't know what to do, I felt like collapsing but I had to stay strong and not let my body take control or anything as I got off the bus and having the keys in my hand ready to see what will happen once this door opens. once I open the door and get inside I see no one there. I let out a shaky sigh as relieve that they aren't there but once a few hours go by I hear the door open to see my parents Inside I knew that I did everything around the house I wouldn't get beat up. 

I heard banging on my door which only got me nervous and as I sat trembling from fear as I open the door and get pulled by the hair 

" what were you thinking of that to your sister, you are so arrogant and rude" she yelled as she hit her 

" I didn't do anything, I'm sorry" I said while crying 

" yes you did, all you do is yell at her and not do anything but yell at her such a lazy bitch" she yelled as she slammed  the door 

" I didn't yell at her" I whispered while crying 

more bruises, more tears, more blood, more scars, everything is falling apart I live in FEAR.