All Shades Of Blood

Chapter 25

THREE WEEKS LATER

When i started to write this diarie i promiced myself that i will write every day but i broke that promice. For this three weeks i didn't have anything to write. From now ohne i'll write when i'll want and when i'll heve something interesting to write.

It's been three weeks now and i haven't spoke to any of them. Sometimes i just asked lucy how is Matthew? And that's all. I didn't want to know anything else. I'm really sad that i broke up with him but i had to. Or maybe i didn't. It's not his fault. I don't know what to do. I can't ask him to be together again. I'm to proud for that. But I can't live without him eather. I never loved anyone including John like i love him and no one loved me that way that he loves me. Loved me. It's been three weeks and he is probably over me.

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FOUR WEEKS LATER

I don't feel so well. I feel sick all the time. And in the same time i'm hungry and I'm looking for something to eat. What's wrong with me? And my period is late for five weeks. No, it's not possible that I'm prenant. We had sex just once. And I think that it's not possible that human get pregnant with vampire. I hope so. I can't be pregnant in first grade. I'll do a pregnancy test. Like five of them just to be sure.

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NEXT DAY

I did it. I did a pregnancy test today. Of five of them all five were positive. I'm pregnant. It's definit. I have to tell Matthew but i don't know how.

I can't have a baby now. I'm 15. I'll have to abort.

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NEXT DAY IN BASE

I walk through the door.

C: You came. It's been a long time.

B: I know.

P: So... Are you back?

B: No, I'm not. I just came to talk to Matt. M: Okay. Let's talk. What do you want to talk about?

B: I...

M: What? What's wrong? Are you ok?

B: No, I'm not ok.

M: What's wrong?

B: I'm prenant.

M: What? Are you sure?

B: Yes, I'm pretty sure. But you don't have to worry about it couse i'm gonna abort.

M: What? The hall you are not.

B: You are not going to tell me what I'm going to do or what I'm not going to do. And like you would care.

P: What's going on?

M: It's non of your bussines.

P: Ok, what's wrong with you?

M: She wants to abort.

P: What? She is pregnant? You are pregnant?

B: Yeah.

I went out and slapt the door. Mat went after me.

M: Barbara, wait!

I stopped.

M: I do care. It's my child to you know and I wont let you abort because you don't know what to do right now but i know that you'll agret it if you do it. I love you. I never stepped loveing you. For this past few weeks i was thinking about you all the time. And I really want to be the father to this child just like you want to be the mother. I'll never let something happen to you or to this child. I promice.

One cold tear of happiness slid down my cheek...