*EMMA'S POV*
I walked up to Jordan's apartment door and I pulled out my phone texting his brother telling him I was outside his door. I rocked back and forth on my heels and then the door opened revealing his brother, I smiled and walked in.
"He's in the room right there." Jordan's brother said pointing to a door right in front of me.
"Thank you so much." I said and walked up to the door. I heard muffled noises coming from the other side of the door, but I just ignored it. I took a deep breath and opened his door and saw something that I wish I could've erased out of my mind.
I saw Jordan, naked, having sex with another girl. I stared at him and he did the same to me and then I lost it.
"What the fuck is going on here?" I yelled at him and threw my hands in the air.
"It's not what it looks like." Jordan said getting off of the girl and putting on some boxers on rather quickly.
"Oh don't pull that bullshit on me, I know exactly what's going on here." I said letting a tear slide down my face.
"No no no no, don't cry Emma, please don't cry." Jordan said rushing over to me with his hands reaching towards my face. I swatted his hands away and slapped him across the face.
"Don't fucking touch me." I said backing away.
"I swear it's not what it looks like." Jordan said stepping towards me.
"No, fuck you. You said you would never cheat on me and look what you're doing now." I said crying, pointing at the girl lying in the bed. Jordan went silent and looked at the floor.
"You know what, I'm done with you. We're over, fuck you." I said flipping him off and walking out of the room.
"No please wait. I can make things right." Jordan said grabbing my arm. I shook his hand off and started walking even faster towards the door.
"Sure. I was so naive to think that you would actually care about me and wouldn't hurt me. God I'm so stupid." I said and grabbed the door handle.
"Emma please don't leave." Jordan said behind me.
"Goodbye Jordan." I said and slammed the door behind me, I ran out of the apartment complex with tears steaming down my face. I ran all the way to my hotel and I sprinted inside getting it my room as fast as I could. I slid my card in front of the card swiper and pushed the door open.
I slammed the door shut behind me and slid down the door crying. I ran my hands through my hair and cried even harder, my mind was racing with thoughts that I thought wouldn't be in my mind ever again. I stood up and rummaged through my bag until I found what I was looking for, my razor.
I broke apart the top from the bottom and started banging the razors against the counter top until they all broke apart into separate pieces. I grabbed a piece and then rolled up my sweater sleeves, I ran my fingers over my old scars and then I put the razor against my pale fresh skin.
My skin became red and blood started appearing in little blobs here and there, I kept on going until the whole lower half of my arm was red and puffy, along with my other arm. I took a piece of paper towel and wetted it down and wiped the blood away that was left over on my arm.
I rolled down my sleeves and walked back into my hotel room, took off my shoes, and lied down and soon drifted off into a deep sleep that would last me until the next morning.
*the next day*
I woke up with my arms hurting and my head pounding. I sat up and rubbed my forehead trying to ease the pain, but it didn't work. I grabbed $3 out of my wallet and walked down to the lobby to the gift shop to see if they had any aspirin, and thank the lord they did.
I grabbed a bottle, rolled up my sleeves, and walked over to the cashier counter. I set the aspirin on the counter and rocked back and forth on my feet, the lady took the aspirin and rung it up.
"Your total will be $2.65." The lady said giving me a nasty look towards my arms, I looked at them and saw the long slash marks that were all across my arms. I shoved the $3 at her and then pulled down my sleeves quickly. She typed in a few things on to her monitor and then gave me my aspirin and some change.
I grabbed it and ran out of the gift shop and up the stairs. I rushed to my door and slid the card across the scanner as fast as I could. I ran and in the bathroom and opened up the bottle, I poured 2 out and stared at them. Memories started playing back in my head.
*FLASHBACK*
"Emma open the door." Josh yelled banging on the bathroom door. I poured some pills out in my hands and shoved them in my mouth, I took the water bottle next to me and gulped down the water with the pills.
"Emma, open the fucking door." Josh screamed his voice cracking. My vision became blurry and I got dizzy, my head began to spin and then everything went black.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
I popped the 2 pills in my mouth and swallowed some water that was running for the sink. I walked into my room and looked through my suitcase for some clothes to wear, I picked out a black t-shirt, light washed high waisted shorts, a flannel, and my black vans.
I walked in to the bathroom again, but this time I had my makeup bag with me. I did my makeup natural and only added a little line of eyeliner and some mascara. I left my hair natural and then focused on how I would hide my cuts, I rummaged through my bag and found some concealer I could out on the, to make it look less visible.
I grabbed my phone and my wallet and headed out of my room and off to the airport to meet up with Poke and Will Shep. I ordered an Uber and saw it waiting for me outside the hotel, I got in and he took me to the airport where I would meet Shep and see Zach.
Once I got to the airport I tipped the driver and got out. I walked through the doors and scanned my surroundings, I saw many people either with bags or sitting down enjoying a coffee while on there computers. I saw a familiar figure in the distance and knew it was Zach.
"Zach!" I yelled running up to him. He turned around and smiled widely opening his arms. I jumped in his arms and he swung me around.
"Well someone's happy to see me." Zach said laughing. I laughed and jumped down.
"I haven't seen you in a week. It's been too long." I said.
"Well you see me now." Zach said smiling. I nodded and then Zach's face flashed into a face of like 'oh Zach you're so stupid' look.
"Emma meet Will, also known as Shep. Will meet Emma, also known as Emma." Zach said introducing me to a guy who was tall and had some bulky glasses, but they suited his face well.
"Hi I'm Emma." I said extending my hand and smiling.
"I'm Will." He said laughing and shaking my hand. We hung out for a long time waiting for people to come in and then I saw someone I never wanted to see again.
