*EMMA'S POV*
"Well it all began in 8th grade, my mom and dad divorced because she was sleeping with another man. My mom married that man and he became my step dad, he was abusive and beat me and my mom almost everyday. Josh lived with my dad so he couldn't help me, let alone do anything. It kept going on and on until I was a sophomore in high school, I came home once day and saw my mom lying on the floor of the living room, my step dad was standing next to her staring me dead in the eyes." I said taking a deep breath. "I dropped my back back on the floor and then the next thing I knew he was chasing me around the house trying to grab me."
"Did he catch you?" Jordan asked looking at me.
"He did catch me and then took me up to his bedroom. He threw me on the bed and then took off all of my clothes and he did the same with his." I said letting a tear run down my cheek.
"Did he?" Jordan asked wiping away the tear and grabbing my hand.
"Yes, he raped me. After that I ran to my bedroom changed packed up some of my clothes and then left the house. I went to go live with my dad and Josh. When I got there the first thing Josh noticed was the marks on my wrists where my step dad had held me down." I said grabbing Jordan's hand and squeezed it. "Then my dad wanted to bring me to therapy, but I refused. I didn't want to be that one weird kid that had to go to therapy so I just dealed with it by cutting and smoking. 2 years later during the middle of my senior year, my dad died of a brain aneurysm." I said and then more tears started pouring out.
Jordan pulled me into his chest and started stroking my hair, my sobs got louder and my breaths were short and it was hard to take in air. Jordan let go of me and wipped away any tears that were still lingering on my cheeks.
"Are you ready to continue?" Jordan asked still stroking my hair. I nodded and took a deep breath.
"When he died, I just felt lost, like I had no where to go. I didn't go back to school for a month, I dropped out of everything I was doing, I didn't answer my texts or calls for a long time and then only people I really talked to was Bee, Straub, and Poke. I never really talked to Josh because he was always out and came home at 2 in the morning some days he didn't come home for 2 days. And then one day I couldn't take it anymore, Josh was home and I knew he didn't care so I ran to the bathroom with a water bottle and then locked the door. I searched through the cabinets and found what I was looking for, pills. I grabbed the bottle and I was about to pour the pills in my mouth when a loud bang on the door scared me and I dropped the bottle, I watched as all the pills scattered to their own place on the floor." I said trying to compose myself.
"Josh was screaming at me, telling me to open the door, but I ignored him and picked up the pills that I could. Once I had enough and I put the pills in my mouth and then grabbed the water bottle that was next to me and I washed down the pills. For a little bit nothing happened and then everything became blurry and then it all cut to black." I said and all emotion I was feeling before left my body and I felt numb.
"So you've tried this before?" Jordan asked, sadness was in his face and eyes. I nodded and locked our hands together agian.
"I'm happier now though, yeah I get down, but I mean look I'm with all these people I love. I am with the guy I love, my brother is here and is not out all night getting waisted and smoking pot and my friends who have helped me through a lot of things." I said mustering a smile, Jordan smiled back at me and then planted a kiss on my forehead.
"I wish I could've been there for you when everything happened. I wish I knew you then." Jordan said pulling a strand of hair out of my face and tucking it behind my ear.
"I think you came into my life at a good time, and I'm happy you did." I said and Jordan's smiled grew bigger.
"Well I think that it is the time to go to sleep because it is getting late and if Josh brings that girl home we don't want to here what may happen." Jordan said and I nodded.
"Are you going back to the hotel?" I asked him sitting up.
"I think so, I can take a shower and I will have fresh clothes to wear if we go out tomorrow." Jordan said sitting up as well and I nodded.
"Okay, well you better call me in the morning." I said and Jordan laughed.
"Okay, good night beautiful." Jordan said walking out of my room.
"Good night handsome." I said in response. Jordan turned around, blew me a kiss, and then closed my door as he left.
"I love you." I whispered and then smiled. I knew Jordan was the one, he has always been the one, no one in the world could take him away from me, I loved him. I changed into a black tank top and the grey lace underwear I got from Hot Topic, I got under my covers and pulled out my laptop from under my bed. I pulled up Graser's UHC Season 5 playlist and started watching it until I fell into a deep sleep.
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Hey guys. I'm so sorry i haven't uploaded in like 2 or 3 days, I've just been busy with school, I joined a Minecraft SMP server, and stuff happened over the weekend and it just hit me and I just felt so unmotivated to do anything. That resulted me staying on the couch, watching tv, crying, and sleeping too much, also I didn't want to eat so my stomach hurt 24/7. I am fine now so I will try to keep posting daily for your guys' happiness. I question of the day is,
What is your favorite band/musical artist.
Let me know in the comments and yeah I love you all and have a wonderful day!!
