Orphan

What is Going on?

TW: mentions of thoughts of suicide/self-harm

Ran’s POV:

Thanks to Lisa’s tutoring, I managed to pass. That was a relief. I had been a little worried that I’d get held back a year. I’m glad that didn’t happen. But, I’m still without them. I just want to be in class with them again. Is that too much to ask?

School hadn’t really changed much. That wasn’t good, though. I was still bullied and stuff. Except, they got bolder now. Fortunately for them, I had learned how to manage my anger a bit more. I didn’t lash out as quickly as I used to. I can keep myself calm a lot longer.

It still wasn’t good for me, though. They were constantly at my side. They knew when they could say things. They rarely got caught. I tried reporting them, but the school didn’t do anything. I don’t want to tell my parents. They think things are getting better for me. I don’t want to show them that’s not true.

“Hey, bitch. Come on, why don’t you show me your dark side? Go on. I know you want to attack me.”

They were back at it again. It was a group of about five girls. They mainly attacked me in pairs. There were two of them before me. I just blankly stared at them. I’ve gotten used to this. I tried to walk away from them as I was told I should do. They don’t like when I ignore them.

“Hey, pay attention to me!” I was roughly shoved into the wall.

“Fuck off.” I growled.

“No. Come on, I know you’re holding back. Just let go and show everyone how much of a monster you are.” The girl who I figured was the leader of the group taunted, “Why don’t you kill me like you did with him?”

I barely caught myself from lashing out. I was seeing red. This isn’t good. She’s learned how to get a response out of me. What do I do now? I’m trapped. They blocked me into a corner. How do I get out without hurting anyone? I don’t know if I can. I may have to hurt them to get away.

“If you wanna get killed so bad, I’m sure there’s a murderer waiting outside somewhere for a victim.” I shot back.

“But I have one right here. Why’d I go through all that extra effort?” She sneered.

“Leave me alone.” I stated firmly.

“If you want me to leave, you’ll have to make me.”

“Unless you want to be reported to the office, I’d think you’d want to leave.” A voice said from somewhere nearby.

The girls growled, but walked away. I looked over at who had spoken. It was Lisa.

“Are you alright?” She asked me.

I nodded, “Yeah…”

“Well, I have to go. You fine by yourself?”

“I think so… thanks for helping me.” I mumbled. I still hate when other people have to stand up for me.

“It’s nothing. See ya.” Lisa smiled at me and then walked away. I saw her talk to someone who was out of my sight and then it seemed they walked away together.

I sighed and made my way to where I needed to go. That would be the roof. Unfortunately, it didn’t seem like I was getting there so easily. They came back. I was grabbed and slammed into the lockers.

“Don’t think you can get out of this so easily.”

“Leave me alone!” I had enough.

I growled and shoved the girl back. She yelped. The other girl swung at me. I couldn’t block it in time. It hit me hard. I stumbled backwards. Fuck. This isn’t going in my favor. I don’t want to, but I think it’s best to run. I can’t fight.