blue | [hky!!]

futakuchi kenji

adults au.

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trigger warnings:
mentions of sex
+ nudity.

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oh
my,
my,
my!

saturday nights were never lonesome. on the contrary, every eight o'clock or so, neighbours would have to knock on room 802 due to uncomfortably loud noises being heard from the aforementioned room.

“mm, kenji, harder!”

“you feel so good.”

“more! more!”

“oh yes, right there, mm.”

whether there was context or not in those uncomfortably loud noises, one thing's for sure: this was heard every weekend. it's a surprise your neighbours haven't sued you for disrupting public peace.

presently, it's almost nine in the evening, yet your surroundings are blurry as you and the man beside you exhale deeply, untangling yourselves from one another as both of your stark naked bodies sink into the heavenly mattress.

you crane your head to steal a glance at the man beside you: brown hair that has been tousled from all the sex; a jawline sharper than paper; toned muscles as thick as as an encyclopedia. but his eyes were the sweetest hue of brown.

i'd die

every night

with you.

...his eyes, although alluring, were as glossy as marbles; they were dull. they held no emotion.

“did you enjoy it?” you inquire in an attempt to ease his mood, whatever he was feeling. was he disappointed? was he angry? was he saddened? did he have fun?

he cranes his head so he meets your nervous gaze, softening his glare in the process upon realizing your emotional state.

then, out of the blue, he brings an arm to your stomach and intertwines his legs with yours once more.

“kenji...” you whisper, and it isn't long before you return the favour. instantly, you melt into his honey-sweet touch, humming ever so softly against his bare skin as your eyes fluttered to a close.

and thus, you met heaven. being with the man was like grazing your fingers against the pure white clouds of a happy heaven. the emerald ocean could not compare to the beauty and awe you felt. and yet, at the same time, it felt like you were drowning in the very same emerald ocean. it felt like your crystalline teardrops had made up the whole picturesque ocean you imagined, so it was your ocean, but it felt like you were dirtying your own art.

you will never remember when the discord of feelings began, but you will always remember the way he held your body endearingly, the way he kissed you with gentle passion, the way he did his deeds. his voice dripped of peppermint— it was refreshing and soothing to hear. his side swept bangs complemented his manly features, and his lips... kissable, to say the least.

feelings are so complex, you ponder as you intently gaze upon the sleeping brunet, who had a light hue of red warming his cheeks.

oh
my,
my,
my!

ah, he's drunk again, you chuckle at the realization, but your laughter dies down to desperate breaths. it's almost as if you were laughing to fool yourself.

but you could never be fooled.

this boy was dangerous. his provocative nature still stuck with him years after high school, and although moniwa had warned you of his problematic behaviour, you still chose to pursue kenji. clearly you had fallen in deep, and not even your peers could help you move on.

it didn't help that the latter male began contacting you every week for sex, either.

gods, how did he even manage to convince you, of all people? you were so sure you would never allow yourself to do such sinful sorcery, not even for your crushes.

does that mean kenji is more than just a crush?

whatever the case, you knew it shouldn't have excused his promiscuous antics, but every week you found yourself agreeing to open the door for him and let him dominate you. you had never admired such guys, anyway. so what in the name of love was so different about futakuchi kenji?

more importantly, why wouldn't he feel the same?

why did it have to be just sex?

oh, gods, i've been fooled. and i'm okay with it.

living

for your

every move.

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i once had a big fat crush on a boy named futakuchi kenji-

i've been dying to get my hands busy and make my brain work so i'm so happy i get to publish another chapter

even if it's shitty :'))