yes please hate me for this chapter because i hate myself for this chapter. it's okay i give you permission to.
enjoy~ (or don't)
Kairi's pov.
i just wish i knew that it wouldnt last.
Mattia and I peacefully fell asleep in the stolen house, with a dead body down stairs. I woke up before him, seeing that he definitely was a cuddler.
I got out of his grip, and went downstairs, even though my legs still hurt from our previous actions. It was dark outside, and there was clouds. I flipped the kitchen light on, seeing the poor old lady with multiple stab wounds in her back.
The dried blood covered the versatile, white, pink, and green tile. I wasn't scared or surprised at the scene, but it did creep me out considering goody two shoes mattia did that.
I grabbed a glass of water, and began wandering around the house. Everything was in perfect condition, and very tidy.
The carpet was a creme color, and all the furniture matched. It was a very grandmother setting.
"kairi?" I heard from the top of the steps. "what're you doing up?"
"i needed more water." i responded, not really listening to him.
pounding, but soft steps were heard followed by a soft hand on my shoulder as i looked out the giant front window.
"you need to sleep." He whispered in my ear, brushing his lips against my neck.
"i'll be up in a second, just gonna take a quick look around." I turned and smiled at him. He nodded and went back upstairs.
I was in desperate need of a blunt, the withdrawals of the drug causing me to feel uncomfortable.
I went back to the kitchen, noticing a phone. I called alvaro, hoping he'd be able to bring me some.
"hello?" The voice was quiet.
"hi alvaro, it's kairi."
"oh. hi." he sounded irritated now, and i heard shuffling.
"i need a blunt."
"okay? why are you telling me?"
"i want you to bring me one, duh."
"kairi it's the middle of the night."
"when has that ever been a problem?" I sighed, tapping my foot on the tile. "just forget it aloe, i'll talk to you tomorrow."
He said a quick goodbye, and i went back to the comfy bed. Mattia was asleep again, sleeping on his stomach with a hand under his cheek.
he looked so calm; relaxed, stress free.
One the other hand my body was a nervous wreck. My hands were cold and shaky, and my chest tightened. It became hard to breathe.
My thoughts raced as i remembered the incident yesterday. with my mother.
i killed her in cold blood. and now everyone would know that i am just some bitchy criminal who killed their mother.
Alvaro didn't like me anymore, because Alejandro was now dead. so i probably meant nothing to my friends anymore.
Mattia was all i had left.
And at any given moment he could just get up and walk out of my life. then i'd be back at square one.
I snuggled the boy, and his arm wrapped around me. "ka- holy shit are you crying?"
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affection. --orginial ver.
Fanfiction"i'm looking for affection in all the wrong places." af·fec·tion (noun) /əˈfekSH(ə)n/ -a gentle feeling of fondness or liking for something or someone.