Loving you

Gone

For the next 20 minutes they are in the room with Lorenzo. A team of 8 people when the doors open no one comes out then for a minute there's people running down the corridor with a bed and Enzo. I stand up looking to where they are taking him when Marianna, Lorenzo mom coming out of an office. Our eyes clock each other's and I almost run to her. She's a really caring women and I know she'll take care of me. When I reach her she wraps her warm arms around my shoulder and holds me close. "They're taking him for an operation. He has bleeding in his lungs. Possibly on the brain." As the words leave her lips I can hear her heart rate speed up. She's crying now. But I can't help my self from bubble away against her. Then she takes a deep breathe pulling me away from her. She cups my face with her hands and wipes some tears away. "Listen... sweetie take a deep breath." She says "Lorenzo might not make it. I know this is hard for us to hear but we have to have faith he'll come back don't we. He's a strong boy. We both know it. He loves you and Giulietta... so do I." She smiles. I don't know how she does it, smile. I've felt sick since I seen the alert on my phone. I open my mouth to reply but nothing I just sob against her.

In the midst of everything Marianna moves over towards the chairs where my friends are but she doesn't let me go. I'm glad that she doesn't I'm scared I might fall. It's about an hour later. One of the longest hours of my life when a doctor that left with Lorenzo walks towards us. His eyes look heavy and he doesn't look good. "Mrs Moretti... I'm sorry to tell you but your son Lorenzo didn't make it out of surgery. His injuries were too severe and I'm sorry but he passed away."

As much as I was listening to everything that he said I didn't want to believe it. How could I believe that Enzo was gone. "Mrs Moretti we need to talk, alone." Says the doctor pointing to the office. She nods and stands up not letting me go. When I hear her speak I know she's not talking to me but my friends. "Take her home. Make sure she's not alone." Then her voice is directed to me. "Jasmine I am so sorry." She kisses my head and disappears. Luca holds me up and we try to walk when I feel my stomach turn. I've not felt like this ever. Then again. I jump up and look around and find a bin, I throw up a lot. Then my knees go week and I fall.

The car ride home was quiet. No one said anything not because we didn't want to but because we didn't know what to say. Everything seemed like a blur. My vision was wobbling the whole way home. I couldn't focus on anything. Until the car comes to a stop. We've been in traffic for hours a journey that should have taken maybe a little over an hour has take almost three. I look out the window and see a wobbling version of my house. I sigh but look to my friends. "Thank you... for bringing me home, looking after me. I'll be okay Gi's inside. I love yous" I try to smile walking out the car. I don't turn back but when I open my door I hear the car drive away. I close the door behind me and drop my bag. The stairs look like a challenge so I just stand here. I don't really want to go anywhere. I don't want to go to bed, I don't know what I want anymore. "Jas, what are you doing just standing there." He says walking down the stairs. I don't reply. The lump in my throat wouldn't let me speak even if I wanted too. "Jas." he says softer standing right in front of me. We're close. "Jas, what happened." He sounds worried now but I can't speak. He touches my shoulder and I crumble. "He he he's ddead." I cry. It's the first time I've properly cried and not just a sob. But I feel my knees go weak and I fall but he holds me up. He tries to get me to climb the stairs but everything a blur I can't.

I don't know how but I make it upstairs and I'm in the shower. I'm sitting down and the water is burning down my back. I'm glad as it's something else I can feel that isn't desperation for him to come back to me. I don't know how long I've been in here for. 10 minutes, 2 hours it could be any of them or in between. There's a knock at the door. "Jasmine. Are you okay. Do you need help." I don't reply. But at the sound of a voice I sob even more. I can't help but think about the last time I seen him. The door closed but I know Gianni is on the same side of it as me. "Can I turn the shower off and get you out?" He questions. I can't believe he's being so kind.

I manage out the quietest yeah and feel the curtain slide along. He wraps me in a towel and moves me from the bath I was sitting in, to the bath mat on the floor. I hold his jumper and don't let go. I feel that's the only thing I can do.

Before long I'm in bed. Gianni got me ready quickly and carried me through from the bathroom. I don't know what I'd do without him. Giulietta is lying in her basket next to me. She looks so much like him. "I'm going to head home. Will you be okay tonight?" He asks finishing up with his shoes.

I shake my head and feel the tears well up in my eyes. "Please don't leave me... stay please." I cry. He looks over to me and all I see if worry in his eyes. "Of course... your mom though?" He questions taking his shoes off and lying on top of the duvet."

"It's okay just don't leave." I cry. He puts his
Left arm up and I take the opportunity to lie next to him. He's warm and kind, caring. I rest my head on his chest and begin to sob, I can't stop the tears. "Shhh it's okay Jas I'm here for you. Try and get some sleep" he says. His hand is rubbing my shoulder and I slowly drift off.