Special Force

Part 19

Her words gave me thrills. "I apologise for my actions, I don't know why or how I did that. I don't remember anything... I wish I could remember." I said. She nodded. "I wanted you to live with the burden of their deaths. But I had to save your life." "At least I came clean now, I'm going to be a better person. For all of you." I said. 

An old doctor with grey hair came in the room, followed by a pale Jimmy who just sat down on the chair next to Jay. "Mister Cote would you please follow me for a check-up?" He asked. My eyes caught Jay's and he noticed Jimmy's condition too. He will take care of him. I nodded to the Doctor and followed the man into the other room. "I heard you've been informed about your actions." The doctor said. I nodded. "I'm glad I know now. Now I know what to change about myself." I said. "I hope you'll change." The man said. 

The man pushed me down in a chair and placed a weird thing on my head. "I'm going to look into your brain. Don't move." He said. I sat still in the chair. I felt three pins pushing through my hair to reach my head. They didn't push through my skin though, they just touched it. I saw the doctor walking to a raised platform. 

He pressed on a button on a computer on the side and suddenly some kind of weird space, like the stars, were created 3D. He walked through and around the 3D space thing. "Is that my brain?" I asked. While I was talking some kind of weird light showed up at some part of the weird space. "Yes, it is. It shows your activity and memory. But also your mental health and your physical health." He mumbled while touching the screen into the desk on the right of the platform. 

"Your memory has been wiped out... But since you've been informed about your past and all, I think I can get your memories back. At least a little." He mumbled. "Really?" I asked. The old man nodded. "I've never done this before, I don't know if it'll hurt." He said. I blinked my eyes in confusion. "W-what?" Shivers ran over my back. "Just reconsider your options please?" I asked. 

"Science isn't about rethinking your options, it's about experimenting and trying 'till it works." The man mumbled and walked over to me. "I'll take some blood monsters first then I'll see what the difference is." He said and grabbed a needle. The needle was so big. Oh god, it looks so scary. When the man came closer, he had an unconcerned look in his eyes before everything went black. 

Flashes of light went before my eyes. Green light. Blue light. Grey light. No, green grass, blue rain and grey clouds. What's happening? I saw a guy covered in black holding a woman. The woman had some sort of bronze hair and a ripped black suit. She was covered in blood, her eyes empty and everything wet of the rain. The man cried. He kept crying as he held her. "No..." I heard him whispering. "Please no..." I heard. 

The man kept crying for hours as he sat there. He held her hand and her head while she lied against him. She was dead. I stood up and ran away. I ran while I didn't see where I was going. I suddenly fell with my face in the wet grass. I looked behind me. Another dead body. My cheeks burn from the tears that fell. I saw Adelyn Dolan's face into this one. The same hair, the same lips, the same nose, but empty blue eyes. Weird blue eyes. They stared into my soul. 

Shivers ran over my spine as I was paralyzed there. The man looked into my soul. I could hear him say 'This is your doing' through my head. His voice was broke but I remember him now. I remember running away, the pain that someone caused in an incident and then Adelyn Dolans younger but crying face. 

Tears ran over my eyes as everything flashes before my eyes. It's suffocating me. I can't breathe! My head felt like it was being run over by a car. My lungs collapsed and I lost all my air. 

Suddenly I was back at the lab, I sat on hands and knees gasping for air. I felt hands on my back but I couldn't concentrate. All I could do was suck up air, gasping for it with my eyes wide open. I heard both Dolan's voices, Adelyn and her dad both talked to me but I don't know what they're saying. 

After a while, I was still panting but grabbed Adelyn's arm to pull myself up. "Alright, alright Tiger let's do it carefully." I heard her say and she put me on a normal chair. "What happened?" She asked. "I- I don't know..." I said, still out of breath. "Do you have your memory back?" Mr Dolan said. I nodded. "It's suffocating..." I told him. "Unhuman," I said again and looked at Adelyn Dolan. "I need to fix this." She smiled while tears came into her eyes. 

I stood up and immediately fell back on the ground again. "Why can't I walk?!" I yelled in confusion. I didn't even feel my legs anymore. "Calm down, your memories must've blocked some other parts of your brain. You might do some weird stuff with your body like getting a boner or getting it extremely hot or extremely cold. I don't know how long it will last." Mr Dolan said. "What?!" I asked. "Give me a wheelchair or something like that!" I said. "I don't want to stay here." 

I looked up while my eyes caught Adelyn Dolan's. I screamed as I immediately saw the brown-haired boy again. Dead, staring at my soul. Her eyes, they look so much like him! She panicked and tried to calm me down by grabbing my shoulders and pulling me in a hug. Without controlling anything of it, tears started to form in my eyes again and hugged Adelyn Dolan back as I suppressed the emotions I felt.