SwayLa life being crazy!!!

I rise.....

⚠️Warning: very sensitive content⚠️

- later that night

?: help, please! I need help now!!

?: please help! Help!

Jaden's POV

— I see Mads screaming for help, she is crying. I try going trough the people to ask her what's wrong, because no one else cares. I run up to her and see falls into my arms. I help her back up....

Jaden: what is wrong? Why do you need help?
- she is definitely drunk

Mads: Jade....

Jaden: what is wrong with Jade, tell me please? Please?!!

Mads: upstairs.... Roof...

- I run upstairs and I go to the roof... but no one is there... I am too late...

Jade's POV

- earlier that night

— I had one drink and I think about mads. What did I do to deserve her? She has done so much for me... She helped me through pain even when she didn't know about it. She (and my other two best-friends, but they are on vacation) are the only people I trust. I trust them more than my family. I can't loose them, but they can loose me. I feel my eyes filling with tears.....

Mads: what is wrong.

— before answering her question I hug Josh, Quinton, Bryce, Jaden, Anthony, Kio and Nessa. They just thought I was having fun. If they would know I wouldn't be able to do this...

— I return to Mads and I start my goodbye, Mads is my best friend and she deserves a goodbye...

Jade: Mads, you deserve someone better to be with you, someone equal as kind and beautiful as you are...
— I try not to let any tears roll down my face...

Mads: what?! No, Jade-

Jade: yes! you do, I am just a pain in the ass where everyone tries to get rid of...

Mads: no, Jade, that's not true-

Jade: it is! I will always remember you Mads, I will never forget what you did. You changed my life and now I am letting you free. You have done your job. You made me happy. I will wait for you for always and for ever...

— I give her a one big last hug...

Mads: No.. please...
- She starts crying. I smile at her and give her the look 'it's okay'. I turn around I quickly walk upstairs to my room

Mads: NOOOO!! PLEASE!! Please, stay, please, Jade, please....
- I look back and see her crying while shouting at me, she tries following me, but there are to many people.

— Even now I am a pain in the ass for her. I shouldn't have said goodbye, but just have left. Now she is in pain and it's my fault. Another reason to continue my plan...

— I have so much where other people are praying for and I should be so happy, but why do I feel so empty inside. I feel worthless and unwanted. I feel ugly, really fat and more ugly. I am nothing, nobody needs me here anyway when you think about it. These people that love me deserve so much better than me. They deserve someone as equally as they are and not a stupid, fat, ugly person like me. I will help them, before they realize themselves....

— I walk out of my room with tears rolling down from my eyes towards my chin. I go onto the roof and I look down. I sit down on the roof. I should go, because why am I here. I have nobody, I only have people who are to good for me and to perfect. I stand up and close my eyes. All my pain comes rushing into my mind: ugly, fat, worthless, unloved, unwanted, same full, pig, dwarf, baby, crazy, weirdo, nobody needs you....

— More words keep on replaying faster and louder: jump, jump, jump, Jump, JUmp, JUMp, JUMP!!

— I keep my eyes closed and I stand up and I take a pill which is always in my pocket, just in case. It makes me fall asleep and it numbs the pain... I stand up, with still my eyes closed.... I walk... one step... two steps... three steps...
The pill takes over and I feel my mind stopping with words, I pass out...

— I feel rising, but nothing more I see white light. I smile... I am where I am supposed to be.....