runaway [l.h] book 2

2.1

"michael, im sorry." I said to him when I first saw him the next day.

"what are you talking about?" he said smiling, spitting out his toothpaste.

I walk in the bathroom closing the door behind me.

"hey! this isn't meant for two people! I can barely fit in it." he said moving back a little when I enter the room.

"michael," I whispered. "I want to apologize for what I said at the party. you should know I didn't mean it."

Michael's widens, getting angrier. "you went through my journal?"

"michael, I bumped into the desk and I saw it and I had to have interest into it!" I replied begging for him to understand.

"Cody, that was the only thing I could talk to! I have no one Cody." he replied, with tears dropping down his cheek.

"michael, you have me. please talk to me anytime you want, anytime of the day."

"but you'll tell the others! Ashton will think I'm a freak, I can't have a bad impression on him."

"michael," I sighed. "Ashton used to cut too. he stopped for personal reasons, but he stopped. he won't judge you if he found out, which he won't. I will make sure of it."

"cody, im sad. I'm depressed, im a person who wants their life to end right now.

"everyday I wake up groaning because I didn't die in my sleep. everyday I walk past a tall building wishing I could just go up there and just jump. because I'll be, at peace." he said leaning on the counter where the sink is placed.

"I want people to care about me, I want people to know I'm breaking. what the hell am I doing here? I have no purpose to live. I just want to take the toaster in my shower every time I use the shower. I just want to take the rope and hang from the ceiling. swinging back and forth in peace." his eyes were red from crying, and his voice was shaky. "I'm a mess right now."

"I have a question for you." he said crossing his arms. "If my death makes life for one person a little more bearable, or a little more enlightened, do I really die in vain?" he said shaking his head.

"I just wish, the voices would go away," he was now sobbing his eyes out. he covered his face so I wouldn't see him cry. "I just wanna go away."

I go up to Michael and hug him tightly, not letting him go. I rub his back, calming him down. His cries slowly stopped after a while. He let go from my embrace and wipped his eyes from the tears.

"Talk to me whenever Michael. Please-" my phone started ringing, it was charm.

"I have to take this." I said walking out of the bathroom. "what charm."

"Cody and Charm, sounds like great duo name, like Bonnie and Clyde." she was talking way too fast for me to understand. "I need a few questions like who's your favorite in blink-182? Mines Travis. who's your favorite youtuber? mines Markiplier because his five nights at Freddy's series are amazing. do you mind if i fuck Ashton? because I know you guys surf and turf a lot so I thought you wouldn't mind. how long have you be been alive-"

"wait charm? did you say you're fucking Ashton?"

"answer the questions first."

I groaned leaning on the wall. "Tom, danisnotonfire and amazingphil, and excuse me? you're fucking Ashton?"

"not fucking, dating!"

:-( I love how I pour all my feels in the chapter :-(

my internet friend kinda called my worthless and stuff like that and made me feel like complete shit so I kinda just poured my feelings into this chapter I apologize :-///////