The Thoughts & Feelings I Want You to Know.

The Paradox

What is this pain that I feel, 

the throbbing ache 

that permeates from our memories 

dissipating 

into oblivion?

I close my eyes 

to hide my tears, 

but I can't hide the agony 

that overflows my heart. 

Isn't it twisted, 

how I don't want these tears

that I long for you to catch

to stop falling? 

As I beg to grasp

onto this last connection 

of you and I, 

I realize that the opposite of love

isn't hate, 

but indifference. 

Let me despise you 

for all your imperfections

that I have once loved. 

Let me condemn you 

for all the faults 

that are not all yours to bare. 

Let me have all these feelings 

than to have none at all. 

For on that one cruel day 

when the latter finally transpires, 

we will know that I've truly 

let go of you.