Catching My Queen

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ZARA POV

I looked at her with my eyes wide in shock. My hands trembled, and I bite my lip in anticipation. Surely, this is not true? How can he love me?

"Rose-" before I could complete my sentence we heard heavy footsteps coming towards the living room. I looked at her with confusion on my face. My eyes widen in the realisation that the only person other than me and Rosemary in the house is Ryan.

Rosemary clasped my hand and pleads me to stay and talk to him. The door opened, and Ryan froze on his spot. Confusion settled in his orbs while his gaze connected to mine. Those orbs were once the brightest part of him but they were now they were swimming with a burning hatred for me. He walked towards me, never once breaking the eye contact. To say I was scared would be absolutely wrong. My hands were shaking, and my legs were about to give up.

"What is she doing here mom?" His deep raspy voice echoed in the room. Even though his gaze was fierce but his voice gave away the vulnerability he was feeling. I couldn't fathom what moves should I make next. I know the moment he saw me in his house, all of the demons that he hides away in his heart will break away. We both knew I was the one to make him feel weak and vulnerable while he would make me feel the same. We were like closed books, No one could read the chapters but only us know what is going in each other heart.

I stood up abruptly so that I could leave but suddenly Scarlett's voice rang in my ear like a burning promise. Help Him. He needs you. My whole body buzz with an unfamiliar feeling.

Five words kept ringing furiously in my ear making it difficult for me to disproportionately concentrate on anything. At this point, I was quite sure that I was going crazy but the passions behind that voice was promising. It was so real and heartfelt, and it settled on my burning soul. A desperate calmness settled on my spirit and my heart rate started to decrease to normal.

He walked towards me with long strides. His calm demeanour giving away anger. He stood right in front of me while I had to lift my head to look into his eyes. Bitterness crept into his face and his jaw ticked. He was handsome but right now he was looking attractive. I jerked my head to get rid of the unholy thoughts and concentrated on the given task that was right in front of me.

"Are you done staring?" He asked. My eyes widen, and my neck started to burn. I haven't even noticed that I was staring at him. A faint tremor of amusement passed on his cruel lips when he saw me blushing hotly. I scarcely looked at him in awe. Even though the traced of a smile was faint but it was still there. "Sorry," I whispered anxiously.

"Why are you here?" He asked again but this time his tone was softer. I took a deep breath and looked around and found Rosemary already disappeared somewhere. I was alone with Ryan. "I came to see your, mum," I replied and he nodded wearily.

"But I wasn't asking why you are over here in my home," He emphasized on my home which caused burning pain in my heart. He was lucky to even call something as his home while on the other hand, I didn't even have any more home left. "What are you doing coming back?"

"What do you mean?" I asked. I was completely aware of what he was attempting to inquire me but as usual, I acted indifferently.

"Why did you come back, Zara? You had no problem leaving us in the first place. So, why come back?" He gritted his teeth in annoyance. I rolled my eyes because quite frankly, I was sick of people asking me the same fuckin question.

"There is some undone business I needed to finish," I explained vaguely. Rosemary already knew about my parents, but I doubt if he knew what happened to them. If he didn't, I would want to keep it that way. I do not under any circumstances want his pity.

My answer made him furious. He struck his fist on the table and glared me intently. His veins popped out from his forehead. He was acting childish. I thought bitterly.

"I wish to never see you again Zara." He barked.

It took me a couple of seconds to register his words in my mind and the moment they did, my heart skipped a beat. "You always wish to never see me, Ryan, but guess what buddy? Not everything works your way. So suck it up." I hissed with hate.

He abruptly took a step back as my whole existence had repulsed him. He opens his mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

"Why do you hate me, Ryan? Is it because I am the one responsible for Scarlett's death? Well need flash Ryan, you weren't there for her either." I seethed with hate. The moment those words came out of my mouth I regretted terribly. It was a low blow. My cheeks reddened as the heat course through my body. A deep sense of humiliation made my gaze skirt across the floor.

"I didn't mean it to come out that way," I mumbled.

"Oh, I erroneously think you meant it." He snapped sardonically. His voice uplifted with anger.

Guilt chokes me and when I glance up to meet his eyes, my heart contracted with pain. His eyes were whirlwind with raw emotions, a massive change from his usual guarded form. I tried to interpret fleeting emotions in his anxious eyes while his eyes frantically searched mine.

"Whenever I look at you the only thing that I see is betrayal, Zara. You betrayed me." He inched forward, and his burning gaze flickered between my bewildered dilated eyes. Our close proximity brought back series of old memories that once we shared.

"You betrayed my dead sister and your best friend." His voice was gruff, dripping with disappointment as he shook his head in disgust.

My heart dropped in my stomach. His harsh words were like needles piercing in my suffering soul. My teary gaze met his, and I let them flow. A long-forgotten feeling surged through me that I had merely forgotten. His eyes shone hotly with disgust that unwittingly made my heart churn in horror.

"You actually hate me," I whispered. The reality of the situation sinking in me. The fact register in my mind, the fact that he loathed me so much. His eyes, his words and his actions gave away. I shook my head and started to walk away when Rosemary step in front of me.

"You two have disappointed me." She grunted. Disappointed dripping from her tone. My head hung low and for the several time in a day, I felt humiliated. "Scar never wanted you two to behave like enemies."

"Scar didn't want to be betrayed." Ryan snapped.

"Well, Scar didn't want for you to leave me alone when I needed you the most." I snapped back at him.

"Enough," Rosemary yelled. She shook her head and took mine and Ryan's hand in hers. She then joined our hands together. Electricity crossed through my body, the moment, our skin made contact making me jump in surprise. While Ryan stood completely unfazed of the situation.

"You both blame each other for what happened that night. When the truth is that no one was on fault. You both loved Scar and would have done anything to prevent that incident. You need to stop blaming each other. Stop fighting with each other and for each other. You both need to move on." She empathised.

Tears leaked from her eyes while she made no move to furtively wipe them away.

"There is nothing left for me anymore other then you both my children. Please stick together. I don't even know what I will do without you both. I will die Ryan. I will die." She cried indignantly and wrapped herself around both of us in a tight embrace.

My own tears made there way out when I heard Ryan whispered those two words in pain.

"Move on."