One dream, One Direction

32. The Moment of Truth.

SAMS POVS

As soon as Zayn closed the door for him and the rest of the boys to go to the dressing room and makeup, I screamed something at the top of my lungs, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I think I might have scared Jamie but oh well. I don't care. I can't take this.

"I STILL LOVE HIM." I yelled making Jamie jump from her position. She sat up and looked at me with wide eyes.

"Uhmm. I'm very confused." She told me. I breathed out, put my phone on the table and stood up to make my point crystal clear.

"I DONT WANT TO BE HIS FUCKING FRIEND. I LOVE HIM AND AJFAKJDGD I CANT TAKE IT." She stood up and rolled her eyes.

"Then why did you tell him you guys were just friends?" She asked me. I sighed and plopped back down on the couch.

"I, ugh. This is really hard for me." I started to say. "I understand that he cheated and I know you have to have a motive for it, but honestly, I just miss being with him. I said we were only friends because right then and there, I thought it progressed to just a friendship." I sighed. Suddenly there was knocking at the door, of course it was Mark.

"Uhh.. Jamie, we need you." Mark said.

"Okay, be there in a second." He smiled and closed the door. She turned back to me "I have to go." She bit the side of her lip and rolled her eyes. 

"Of course."  I was so mad, she always ditches me. 

"I'm sorry! It's my job." she said while walking over to the door. "Talk to him. I'm sure he feels the same." she winked at her as I closed the door and I was sitting there alone with what she just said in my head. What did she mean by "i'm sure he feels the same." He couldn't possibly feel the same way I do anymore considering the fact that he cheated on me, I mean hellooo Jamie where have you beennn?!?! I sighed. I don't know if I can stay here anymore and deal with being in the same room as Niall. I love him and I'm not going to be able to fight the urge of not being able to kiss him or being in his arms. It'll bother me and soon I'll do something I'll regret if I stick around. I should go home, and go back to school. I mean it is starting in like a month anyways. So I might as well go and get my Senior year over with, eh? Before I talk to Jamie and the boys i'm going to talk to Paul and have him get my ticket and everything just so they don't or they can't change my mind. I'll leave tomorrow night so they don't have time to change my mind. I'll tell Jamie first tonight and then I'll break it to the boys. Now that I planned that out, I gotta go find Paul. I walked out of the room I was just in and witnessed a bunch of people just running around. Wow, backstage is hectic before concerts, my gosh. I went up to one of the guys who weren't doing anything.

"Hey, do you know where I can find Paul?" I asked the tall man, who I'm guessing was a body guard. He looked at me and then nodded. Pointing to a room that the door was open a crack.

"Thanks!" I smiled and started towards the door. I heard him talking on the phone, so I decided to wait a few minutes before knocking. Once it was silent, I knocked twice.

"Come in!" Paul yelled. I slowly walked in and he seemed surprised to see me. 

"Oh, hi Sam! What can I do for ya?" He asked. I love Paul, He's so cool, nice and the sweetest. He also really cares about the boys and you can so tell. It's so cute. I cleared my throat before speaking

"Well, as you know, I'm starting school in a month, and I was wondering if you would be able to get me a plane ticket for tomorrow night for me to go back home.." I said, He shot up and looked at me very worried and surprised.

"Did anything happen that's making you want to go home?" He asked, concerned. I appreciated his kindness. 

"Oh, No. I just want to be home a little early to get ready for Senior year and everything." I said, he seemed convinced.