❥︎𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗙𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗻 𝗔𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗹ꨄ︎ᴘᴊᴍ

21

Eun Dal's POV

I fiddled with the paper in my hands nervously thinking about the consequences if I put it in that post box.

I stood up from my chair and took a long breath before going outside.

When I reached the garden behind the house, I took a last glance at the paper before folding it.

"Am I doing the right thing?" I questioned myself repetitively stumbling between putting it in and burning it.

The letter that I was going to send to god would be the last one because I lost my faith in him, in the heavens and everything after knowing all the truth.

The letter that I was holding in my hands contained my true feelings.
I wrote it with all my strength not caring about the consequences later.

I faced the post box infront of me and took a deep breath and put it inside.

"You can't undo that, you know" A voice said from behind which nearly made me jump.

I looked back feeling surprised,"hoseok...?"

"You know that whatever you write will be directly sent to the God, you know that or you don't?" His voice sounded a little aggressive as he  walked towards me.

"I–I know..." I looked down.

"Then why did you do it? Why did you write that?" He asked, his voice getting louder every time.

I was a little surprised at this version of Hoseok. He was usually a bright person who won't ever show a gloomy face but him shouting angrily at me made me feel nervous.

"I wrote what you told me to, I gave all the information as you told me to." I said trying to sound calm and normal.

"Living in this human world, you even got better at lying, huh" Hoseok scoffed stepping forward.

I looked away feeling nervous every second.

"Did you forget that I will always get a copy of whatever you write?" Hoseok raised a piece of paper in air as I gulped.

holy crap.

"Answer me Eun Dal, Why are you behaving strangely? It isn't like you anymor–"

"Yes I know! I know I am not being me right now and I am forgetting my mission and responsibilities as an angel on mission! I know it all!" I exclaimed angrily at him.

I don't know why did I shout at him but the emotions that I gathered until now had to be shown to him sooner or later. He was my Gurdian deity after all, he had to know every little thing about me.

Hoseok looked startled as he frowned at me.

"Why are you doing this? you can just go back to your home and live your life normally once this mission is done. It was almost done, why did you make it more complic–"

"I–I don't know...." My voice started to crack at that point.

"I don't know how to feel anymore....but I know one thing...." I calmed myself down and took slower breaths.

"I can't hide my feelings anymore, Hoseok. I can't. " I glanced at him, my eyes filling up with my emotions.

"You have to, Eun Dal, you have to keep it within you. You have to hide it–"