Lover of an Anarchist (based on characters from Sons of Anarchy)

Chapter Thirteen

(Jax's P.O.V)
Later that evening the guys and I were riding back to Neve and Nad's place for a dinner that my mom had planned. Although upon our arrival I was told by Donna that Neve was in bed and didn't feel like eating. I decided to go and find out what was wrong so I walked upstairs to our room. When I got to the door I reached up to knock but heard her crying. I walked in and found her curled up on her bed facing away from the door sobbing.
"Hey baby." I said and walked over to the bed. She sniffled and whispered
"Hi." Without looking at me. I sat down on the edge of the bed and placed my hand gently on her back.
"What is it Darlin'?" I asked. She then sat up and flung her arms around me. I held her tightly and rubbed her back, waiting for an answer to my question.
"I love you." She said softly. Her voice muffled by my shoulder.
"I love you too, Neve," I said. "Now what's wrong? Please, tell me." She pulled herself reluctantly from my embrace and sat back, keeping her eyes glued on her hands in her lap. She sighed and swallowed loudly before continuing.
"I'm pregnant." She said without raising her eyes.
"What?" I asked although I knew perfectly well what she said.
"I'm pregnant." She repeated as more tears rolled down her cheeks. I couldn't believe it. She was having my baby!

(Neve's P.O.V)
I was scared of Jax's reaction to the bombshell I just dropped on him. I didn't know what he'd say or whether he'd leave me or not. I mean I didn't even know if he wanted a baby or not. Hell, I didn't even know if I wanted a baby. I sat there silently anticipating Jax's reaction for a few minutes. A few agonisingly long minutes before he finally spoke.
"I won't leave you if that's what you're worried about," he told me on a small chuckle. "I said I loved you Neve and I meant it. The reason I was so quiet just now is because I couldn't find a word to express how happy I am. This is awesome! Abel will have a younger brother or sister."
"Abel," I asked curiously. Raising my eyes to Jax. "Who's Abel?" Jax looked sheepish for a moment.
"Abel is my son," he said. "I had him with my ex wife Wendy. He's been staying at mom's because of all the shit with the Irish that's been happening lately." I nodded slowly. Taking in the fact that Jax had a kid he hadn't told me about.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner," he said. "But I wanted to. I understand if you're pissed. I would be."
"I'm not pissed," I said. "I just wish you would've told me. I wanna meet him. After all, if I'm a part of your life, I'm a part of his, right?"
Jax smiled.
"Yeah," he said. "I guess you are. He's probably gonna be here tomorrow. Neeta his nanny won't be around tomorrow because it's her day off so mom will most likely bring him with her. I reckon he'll love you."
"If I love you so much, I'm betting I'll love him too." I said smiling before he kissed me. After that we sat talking about our childhoods and really life in general and plans for the baby until Gemma called us out for dinner. After telling Jax I felt better and a little more like eating so we went out to the kitchen and enjoyed a dinner together.
(Jax's P.O.V)
I laid awake that night thinking about Neve and the baby. I couldn't imagine how she was feeling. I had Abel already and I was excited but she was scared. I was scared too but not for the same reasons she was. I was scared because with all the shit going on, I didn't want her or the baby hurt. I wanted them safe. Protected. Neve, Abel and the new baby were my life, my whole world. I would do everything in my power to keep them safe.

(Neve's P.O.V)
I awoke the next morning to the bed beside me empty and a note on the pillow. I grabbed the piece of paper, unfolded it and began reading.
"Dear Neve," it said. "If you are reading this it means I've gone with Clay and some of the guys to collect some guns from the Irish. Don't worry, I'll be back later on. I love you both, Jax."
"Typical," I chuckled as I ran a hand over my stomach. "Never gives a specific time just says 'I'll be back later on.'" After that I shook my head and walked out to the living room.

When I walked into the living room I found Gemma sitting with a little boy about two years of age. That must be Abel. He certainly looked like Jax. Blonde haired, blue eyed and beautiful.
"Morning Gemma." I said giving her a smile and a wave as I headed towards the kitchen.
"Morning baby," she said following me and giving me a hug and a kiss on the head. "How'd you sleep?"
"Pretty well," I said with a shrug. "Is that Abel?" She nodded.
"Yeah, this is Jax's boy."
"He really looks like him." I said smiling as I watched the little boy colouring in his colouring books.
"Yes he does." She said on a chuckle. I sighed then.
"What's the matter Sweetheart?" She asked.
"I have some news for everyone. Could you make sure all the guys and everyone is here when they get back?" She nodded.
"Sure. You gonna tell me what's wrong baby?" I took a deep breath.
"I'm pregnant, it's Jax's." I said. She pulled me into a hug.
"Congratulations honey!" She said. "That's great! What're you hoping for?"
"I have a feeling it's gonna be a girl." I told her smiling widely. She kissed my head.
"I'm so happy for you both," she told me. "Does Jax know yet?" I nodded.
"Yeah, he does. I told him last night."
"It's good you told him." She said and gave my shoulders a final squeeze before Abel came running over. He grabbed Gemma's hand and dragged her over to the little table where he was playing. He pointed to the picture he was currently colouring and said
"Daddy." I smiled. The picture was a man on a Harley. He looked up at me and giggled. He really was so much like Jax. Which made me wonder what our baby would look like.

I have brown hair and blueish green eyes. According to my mom I looked like my dad's side of the family. I'd never met my father but mom told me that he was Scottish. He left when Nad was two and mom was pregnant with me. She told me he remarried and had another family in Ireland.
Just then a thought popped into my head. Chibs. He's Scottish and he has wife and daughter in Belfast.
"He couldn't be." I whispered to myself stumbling back into a chair.
"What's wrong baby?" Gemma asked me. I shook my head and felt tears stinging my eyes.
"Where's Juice?" I asked. Gemma looked at me curiously.
"He's over at T.M.," she said. "Why?"
"Could I call him? I need him to find some information for me. About my father."
"Ok." She said sounding kind of suspicious. She then handed me her phone and I found the number for T.M. I called and it rang three times before Chucky picked up.
"Teller-Morrow automotive how can I help you?"
"Hey Chucky," I said. "It's Neve. Is Juice there? I need to speak to him."
"Hey Neve," Chucky said. "Sure thing. I'll go get him for you."
"Thanks." I said and waited for a few minutes before hearing Juice's voice.
"Juice here," he said. "What's up?"
"Hey Juice," I said. "Could you look something up for me?"
"Sure. What do you need?"
"A marriage certificate for Maria Laurence."
"Isn't that your mom?" He asked.
"Yeah." I said. I heard the sound of keys on a computer keyboard clicking away.
"Got it," he said. "It says here that in 1986 Maria Laurence was married to... Oh my god." He said.
"What?" I asked. "Who? Tell me Juice!"
"Your mom was married to Filip Telford... Chibs." My stomach did a backflip.
"Thanks." I said.
"You ok?" He asked me.
"Yep. I gotta go."
"Call me back if you want to talk." He said.
"Ok." I said with tears threatening to escape. Then we hung up. I ran my shaking hands through my hair and let out a shaking sigh and a few tears. After that Gemma came in and asked what was wrong but before I could answer Jax and the guys walked in. When I saw Chibs I broke down and ran from the room. I ran up to my bedroom closed the door and slid down it. I pulled my knees to my chest, rested my head on them and sobbed loudly. Someone knocked on the door.
"Who's there?" I asked through my tears.
"It's Op." I stood up, opened the door and flung my arms around his waist.
"What's wrong?" He asked concernedly.
"I asked Juice to look up information on my father."
"And?" He asked.
"My father is Chibs. My mom married him ten years before I was born and she never married again after him. She also told me that he had another wife and daughter in Belfast."
"Oh. My. God." He said.
"Neve, Honey," Gemma called. "It's time for you to share your news." I nodded. Op took my hand and we walked down to the living room together. Turns out Gemma called everyone from T.M and the clubhouse over as well. I was so nervous. I had to tell everyone about the baby and Nad about Chibs. I stood in front of the group and had my head down. I couldn't bear to look at Chibs or Jax or anyone really so I kept my gaze glued on my feet. They were all being really loud.
"Hey guys, shut up!" Gemma yelled and waited till there was silence before turning to me.
"Go ahead baby." She said with an encouraging smile. I sighed.
"I have two things to say," I began nervously. "The first is that I'm pregnant." I got a round of congratulations and hugs from everyone. Until Chibs came over to me. I stopped him from hugging me.
"The second," I said as I took a step back. "Is I found out who my father is today. His name is Filip Telford. My father is Chibs." There was a collective gasp of surprise from everyone in the room.
"How do you know that?" Nad asked. "How did you find out who our dad was? Mom never told us."
"I got Juice to look up mom's marriage certificate and Chibs was the only man she was ever married to."
"Is this true?" Nad asked Chibs angrily. He nodded.
"Aye," he said in his thick Scottish accent. "I left to protect you two and your Ma. I never wanted to lose you but at the time leaving was the only way to keep you safe. I'm so sorry." He had tears in his eyes. I believed him. I was sad and angry that he left us but hey, we had him back now and we had another sister. I walked over to Chibs -my dad- and hugged him.
"I love you, Kid." He said as he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head.
"I love you too." I said. Then I gestured for Nad to join us. She walked over and flung her arms around him. We all stood there for a few moments before Gemma decided that she'd make a special dinner for us. I smiled and stepped away from Chibs to go stand with Jax. Jax wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me passionately.
"I love you," he said. "I'm so proud of you."
"I love you too." I said and watched as Nad and Kip kissed and then Chibs pulled all of us in for yet another hug. I laughed as we all squished together in a group hug.