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4 - Pain

{Trigger warning | Mature content}

When I reached my front door, I was hesitant to step inside and see what awaited me. Eventually, after swallowing the lump in my throat, I walked in, only to find mom waiting. Almost passed out on the couch with empty beer cans around her.

Mom came up to me, staring at me from head to toe. "where'd you get the coat?" She asked.

"I- I got stuck in the rain and-" before I could continue I got cut off by her yanking my hand and lifting it to examine this foreign garment.

"Ahh. I see now." She said, with disgust in her eyes. "Was my happiness not enough?" She asked while I looked at her confused. "Do you have to rob more families of their happiness, huh! You little slut" she continued.

I tried to comprehend, "I- I don't understand, mom wha-"

"Don't give me your innocent act. You were out seducing men, weren't you?" She said, as I shook my head and her grip got tighter on my wrist. "That could have been someone else's husband for all you know!"

She wore another disgusted look on her face and threw me down to the ground.

"Just go." She said. "I can't even look at you right now."

I scurried my way upstairs, getting into my room, not even bothered with a shower to warm my body. I threw Tae's coat to the ground and rolled up my pants, slitting my ankles while trying to forget the pain.

Did I take her happiness away? Am I the reason she can't be happy anymore? She's always so nice in the mornings but at night when I see her like this I know that I'm the one that stripped her of her joy.

I changed into dry clothes eventually falling asleep on the floor, paying no mind to the blood still dripping down to my feet. My body started warming up slowly.

It still burns more though, the spot she grabbed earlier. I can still feel the pain in my wrist, the pain that reminded me of her pain.

I caused her pain.

The next day I had woken up on the floor, flashing back to last night as her words kept ringing in my head. I went into the bathroom and looked at my eyes in the mirror, red and puffy from crying and my ankles swollen and throbbing.

I noticed that her car wasn't in the driveway. She must have left early for work. I, however, felt slightly at ease knowing that I could calmly get ready this morning. It's been a while since I've eaten breakfast before leaving home.

I wore high tops today to hide the marks from last night. With another long-sleeved shirt and leggings. Just as I was about to leave, I saw Tae's coat on the floor.

Looking at it just reminds me of last night all over again. Even though I'm grateful, I just want to get rid of it as fast as I can, so I got out a gift bag from the storage room and folded the coat neatly, placing it in the bag to give to him later.

When I got to school I decided to put in my earphones again. Even if there wasn't anything playing in them, it would hopefully reduce the urge for people to taunt me.

Sadly, it did not. Through my silent earpieces, I could hear the sharp remarks made towards me. Trying not to react, I slowly move my left hand into my pocket to emit apathy since my right hand was holding the bag with the coat inside.

As usual, I headed straight to class. This time there were a few people there before me, Tae being one of them. The sight of him makes me nervous all over again. After building enough courage, I walked up to him slowly and greeted him.