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34 - Shattered

<Taehyung POV>

"I'm done."

She said this with so much tenacity and certainty. It makes you wonder how long she had been suffering for. It made me realise how negligent I had been towards her.

I've been in relationships before, but nothing ever felt as real as this one. In the span of merely a few months, she was able to teach me lessons that nobody in life had ever mentioned to me before. Everything bad in the world meant nothing at all to me when she was in my life. She managed to touch my heart without her hands, and my response was to hurt her the way that I did.

I couldn't pin the blame on anyone but myself. I couldn't blame her for not talking to me because I should have been the one to see it first. The thought of losing Y/n broke me. This was never my intention.

I know that it's selfish for me to even think about this, but, I want her back. I'm a complete wreck without her. Nothing in life is adding up anymore. What hurts more is seeing her get on just fine without me. Although, I guess that wasn't too hard since she probably had to soothe herself when I wasn't around anyway.

Ever since we had broken up, she had been avoiding me. She left earlier in the mornings without even eating breakfast. Yoongi knew about our break-up so he probably allowed her to change seats as well. She now sat in a far and distant corner.

During lunch, she was nowhere to be seen. On that first day that she avoided the cafeteria, I figured that she didn't want to be around me, but that also meant that she was alone. I asked Jungkook for the biggest favour ever--to look for her and give her company but never to say that it was me that sent him. It turned out that she would spend her lunch break on the rooftop.

Even at home, she kept her guard up. She didn't respond to me when I waved to her in the mornings. Honestly, I don't blame her. I don't call this 'being rude', but instead, I call it moving on. That's what hurts the most. That she's moving on.

"Taehyungah, do you have a minute?"

It was mom standing outside of my room door waiting for me to grant her access. Instead of replying to her, I stood up to open the door, revealing my mom who looked at me with sorrow-filled eyes. After I had seen this, I walked back to my spot on the bed where I had been wallowing for the past week.

"I told Y/n that she should continue living with us," She started while gradually walking into my room. Even as she approached me, I still kept quiet, "I know that you two haven't been on the best of terms but--"

"Whatever you do," I interjected her. After a small hesitation, I went on to say, "Just... Please never let her feel unloved."

My mother's eyes softened on me. My feelings were consuming me from within. I felt as though I was rotting from the inside. My mother slowly sat next to me on the bed, with her soft eyes piercing through my soul and her warm hand caressing my back.

"TaeBear," She added, "be honest with me. Do you love her?"

With that, my emotions had surfaced. The grey cloud that had been hovering over me had finally become too heavy. Everything that I had tried to hold back this week had finally overflowed. My tears flowed out my of eyes like a waterfall.

Impulsively, I had flung myself into my mother's arms. I was in need of any form of warmth at this point because I was more than broken--I was shattered.

"Mom!" I cried as the draped her arms around me to calm me down slightly, "I love her mom! I love her so much! It hurts, mom!"

My voice was shaking almost as much as I was. My entire perception of happiness was shattered by her words.