Falling For You (bxb)

9. Leave It Behind

5.14.20

Antony's POV

When my angry son stormed out of my bedroom, the horrible pressing of guilt slammed down upon my shoulders. I was swamped with too much emotion, and I was starting to take it out on others. His words about my father really hit home, and I thought back a few years to a time much worse than the present.

"Remember what I have taught you about going to school with the humans," my father barked. Sometimes it felt like the only things he cared about was me becoming alpha and his own social status. It was like he didn't view me as a human being, much less his son.

"Yes father. Don't get attached since I'm just going to learn about their culture, don't tell anyone about myself, and don't fall in love with any of the humans," I responded with my chest puffed out. I didn't feel super confident, but if he knew about that, I would never hear the end of it.

"Good. Now get your ass to school."

I ran to school with increasing nerves. What if I messed up and got my father mad at me again? When I got to school, I went to my first class of the day with a rather large frown on my face. It went pretty well, but it was the time between first and second block that got me screwed.

After a strange conversation with a human, I found myself stuck in a relationship that I didn't really need. While I did want friends, I was deliberately disobeying my father by agreeing to become friends with this kid.

As soon as I got home that night, my father was waiting for me. "So I heard from one of my men that you made a human friend after I specifically told you not to!" he bellowed angrily, and I found myself shrinking away from the man. "Why do you insist on making all of this so much harder for me, Antony? I try to be a good parent, but you insist on doing the exact opposite of what I say."

"I just didn't want to be so alone, father," I murmured while playing with my hands instead of looking my own father in the eyes. "And he approached me. It would have been wierd if I turned him down."

"Still... As a punishment for ignoring my words, you will go to bed tonight without eating."

"But father!"

"No buts, Antony. You must listen to your Alpha. Now get out of my office!"

I left the room with my sights cast on my toes. Yet another night all on my own without my father caring if I live or die.

***

I pulled Jackson's body close to mine while out lips were locked together. I know that I'm supposed to wait for my mate, but I feel too strongly for this boy. I felt his body pushing me back into my mattress, and the door slammed open just when my hand had slipped underneath his shirt.

"How dare you do this action with him? This is unforgivable, Antony, and with a coven member! You are a shame to your pack, so you are no longer in it! Get out!"

"But father–"

"You were supposed to wait for your mate, and not to mention that he's a man and a vampire! I will not accept such relations in my pack especially with my son."

I climbed out from underneath Jackson's body and walked up to my father. "Please! I promise it will never hap–" Slap!

"I already told you to get out. You are no longer to be the alpha of this pack. Just admit it to yourself that you are a disgrace to both your species and your own father."

"You were never my father!"

Slap! "I already told you to get out of here. Do not make me call the guards!"

I reached back to grab Jackson before running out of my own land. "Shhh... I'm so sorry, I should have been more careful," Jackson cooed while I cried into his shoulder.

"I don't have a purpose any more, Jacky. I'm just a packless Alpha."

"We'll figure it out together."

***

Was I really treating my own son the way I was treated? I mean, I strongly disagree with his decisions, but Allystar is right. He's my son! I don't deserve to be a part of his life anymore. All I've ever caused him is trouble, and he needs something better. He has to feel happiness, but I'm blocking that road. I need to leave.

In the dead of the night, I climbed from the window of my bedroom. The note that I had left on my bed should explain it all. I sprinted through the forest blindly until I reached the town, but before I could focus on finding a place to call my new home, I smelt a familiar scent. Tears rushed to my eyes when I thought about Jacky, but I knew that he deserved better than me too. As I walked by the river, I couldn't help but smile slightly. The sky was absolutely beautiful in the reflection, and I could see the half moon shining from behind clouds.

The world was so different when I chose to sit back and watch it rather than become a part of it. I could hear the sounds of cars passing on the main road and the rushing of the river right next to my feet. While it smelled like human pollution, I could still sense the sweet scent of my soulmate. The air was bitter against my skin, but I chose to ignore it to follow the bliss of the world around me. Eventually, I found a little bench next to the river and sat down on the cold metal.

At that moment, I realized that the aroma of pine and sugar cookies was getting stronger, and as soon as I recognized that fact, a body sat down next to mine on the bench. "Why are you here," Jackson whispered into the calm night.

"I'm just a bad father. My son deserves so much better than what I've given him."

"I understand what you mean. We're probably both guilty of trying to break them up."

"Mhmm."

When his head leaned against my shoulder, I nearly melted from the happiness in my heart. "When I left, it just felt so wrong. As soon as I got here, I just wanted to go back to you, but it was similar to what you feel with your son. I don't deserve you."

I turned my head to look at him, and when I recognized that he was crying, I rotated my body slightly. I lightly brushed my fingers underneath his chin gently, and once he looked at me, I smiled at him. In the dim lighting, his eyes were even more beautiful, and I found myself unintentionally leaning into him.

"I'm so sorry about all of the things I did to you. It was so stupid of me to treat you like a play toy," I breathed.

"It was stupid, but I shouldn't have left you alone in the woods. Will you run away with me?"

"Gladly. Let's leave this shithole behind."