His Secret Affair ✔

#Chapter31

#Chapter31

Nethon's POV

I've decided na bumalik na sa apartment ko, pinigilan pa ako nila hyung pero nag matigas ako.

Hahayaan lamang nila ako if papayag akong bibisitahin nila ako time to time, hindi lang ang mga hyung ko, kahit ang mga babae kong pinsan kaya pumayag na lang din ako, basta hindi na nila ako aayain pa kahit saan.

Bumungad saakin ang malinis na sala ko at hindi na ito amoy usok ng sigarilyo, tinanong ko ang mga pinsan ko tungkol don, baka sila ang nag linis nito pero sabi nila hindi pa nila nagagalaw ang apartment ko, some of them sabi saakin hindi nga nila alam kung saan ang address ng apartment ko.

Binaliwala ko na lamang ako at kinuha ko sa bag ang isang alak, binuksan ko ito at nag salin ako sa baso bago ko ininom.

Bago ako umalis, nag nakaw ako sa bar namin sa bahay ng alak which is ayaw na ayaw ni Alexander hyung, ayaw na niya akong iminom na ganito ang sitwasyon ko, pero dahil isa akong Kyril, matigas ang ulo ko kaya ito.

Nilabas ko pa ang iba at nilagay ko lang ito sa mesa.

Gabi na ng nakabalik ako dito kaya napatingin ako sa terrace ko nakikita ko dito ang city lights.

Dinala ko naman ang baso at alak ko sa terrace, umupo doon at nakatingin lang sa city lights, napatingin naman ako sa kalangitan, napangiti naman ako ng mapait. Sinindihan ko ang sigarilyo ko at nag hithit ako.

Bumalik ako sa loob para kunin ang guitar ko. Pinwesto ko ito at nag simulang nag strum pero bago ko pinagpatuloy inubos ko muna ang isang stick ng sigarilyo ko.

Uminom pa ako bago ulit nag strum. Hindi tulad ng nakasanayan ko sa tuwing pipikit ako pag kumakanta, napatingin nalang ako sa kalangitan.

Title: Upside Down by 6cyclemind

I've been spending some time
Thinking I'd be alright
Don't know if I could
Really make it tonight

Lie awake in the dark
Come down then I start
Thinking about you
Is almost breaking my heart

I don't know where I went wrong
Or what's going on
Baby I feel like
Our love's lost tonight

Should I stay, should I go
Well I really don't know
Lately I've been missing you so

Baby, you don't understand
Our love lies lost
But you're still
Holding my hand

Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight
I want you to stay

You're turning me on
You turn me around
You turn my whole world
Upside down

You're turning me on
You turn me around
You turn my whole world
Upside down

Every time I hurt you
Well it's hurting me too
Don't know if
I could really stay here tonight

Tired of thinking of you
And everything that you do
Tell me what am I supposed to do
Well I just wanted to say that

I need you today
Tell me it's all gonna work out alright

I don't know where I should start
But with all of my heart
Baby let me
Be your lover tonight

Baby you don't understand
Our love lies lost
But you're still
Holding my hand

Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight
I want you to stay

You're turning me on
You turn me around
You turn my whole world
Upside down

You're turning me on
You turn me around
You turn my whole world
Upside down

Oh you know you're turning me on
You turn me upside down
You turn me around
you know you're turning me on
You turn me upside down

Naramdaman ko naman ang pagtulo ng luha ko ng maalala ko ang huling beses na nagkita kami ni Achelois.

I miss her but what can I do? ayokong makita niya ako na ganito ang epekto niya saakin. Gusto ko pag magkita ulit kami parang wala na lang saakin.

Masaya na yung tao sa piling ng iba, ayoko naman ipilit na maging ulit siya.

"So your back?"

Napalingon naman ako sa katabi kong Terrace. Ngumiti naman ako at kumaway sakanya. Tango lang ang naging tugon nito.

Ininom ko na ang nasa bote kaysa sa don sa baso.

"You're drinking again?"

"Why?"

"Don't drink too much Nethon"

"Why do care Caraquel? uhm?"

"I'm just saying"

"I have something for you"

"Nethon stop it, you're hurting yourself and ginagawa mo kong masama sa mga pinsan mo" natigilan naman ako at napatingin sa kanya na nagugulohan.

"Are you not curious about what happen to me in five years?"

"I'm not" tumawa naman ako ng mahina, nilagok ko muna ang alak ko bago ako tumingin sa city lights.

"You know, when you experience freedom you wan't more, you don't want to go back to where you belong. That feeling what I feel in five years Caraquel. I taste freedom when I'm here five years ago, the decision is mine but after the party, my real situation in life is back, the decision is not mine anymore." huminga naman ako ng malalim at uminom.

"The sad thing happen after the party, when I'm back, I'm already conscious, everything is fast, at first we've been attack in the hospital then I become unconscious, then when I decided to wake up the minute I'm awake I heard I'm going home, I want to stay, I want to wait for you, I to wait for you to visit me because that's what you've promise me but sadly the decision is not mine anymore. Everything is fast,they can't even give me some minute to say goodbye to you." inubos ko naman ang natirang alak at napatingin kay Achelois, nasa akin ang atensyon niya.

"In five years, I'm sending some help to my other so they can help me to get out, they help me, my titos help me. I don't know but I think destiny is helping too, because my tito decided to send me here while he's covering me. But the saddest thing happen? it's you"

"I never ever imagine myself, you being happy with someone, giving that sweet smile that I've been craving in five years to others. I've been hearing you moaning in mind in five years too, I told you back then that moan for me, just for me, only me. It hurt me so bad when I'm showing and give you the feels that I miss you and I'm craving with you for five years but you're calling someone, you're moaning with someone's name. I hate you for making me feel this way Achelois"

"Nethon"

"Remember? when Ashton hyung tell us about the meaning of your name? she who wash away the pain, please make it happen for me, please wash away this pain" napayuko naman ako nang maramdaman ko ang pag sunod sunod ng pag tulo ng luha ko.

"I think you need to go inside, it's cold here" sabi ko naman nang hindi nakatingin sakanya.

"Lasing ka na Nethon matulog ka na"

"Don't mind me, just go inside"

"Nethon I'm not yours, even five years ago, I'm not yours, so don't act like I'm yours, I've never been yours, please ayusin mo sarili mo"