Fifty Shades Of Park Jimin

•Chapter 14•

I end up running and running not really knowing where I'm going. I don't know how long I've been running for but my legs feel like they're going to snap. I feel like there's no air around me anymore and I'm just suffocating. I stop, just for a moment, just to take a few breaths. The rain started to pour a while ago and now it's crashing down against me. Everything's wet and my make-up must be running down my entire face.

I ended up at Hobi's house. I could have gone to Amanda after telling her everything about Jimin but the fact that I didn't even listen to her advice and just did my own thing makes me feel embarrassed. She's probably ashamed of me. I'm ashamed of myself. I knock on Hobi's door, praying that's he's at home. It's the evening now so he should be, unless he's out?

The door opens and he's beaming with so much joy until he sees my state. He doesn't even need to question me before opening the door wide to let me in. He quickly grabs a towel and wraps it around me to warm me up. I sit by his fire, still a shivering mess. My teeth are chattering, hands shaking and my entire body feels numb.

Hobi quickly comes back from the kitchen with a hot chocolate in his hand. I didn't even need to ask. He already knows. He sits by me and a worried expression covers his face.

"What happened y/n?" He asks with concern.

I shake my head unable to answer him. I don't want to cry anymore but if I speak I'm worried I will. Everything's replaying in my mind - the argument with Jae, all the shouting, screaming and the nasty words he spoke to me. But also remembering all the kind words Jimin spoke to me. The way he comforted me when I was so scared, he gave me medicine, made sure I ate properly and even let me wear his clothes. Something Jae has never done.

Hobi wraps his arms around me in a comforting hug. I feel safe in his arms, I always have.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asks softly.

I shake my head in response. He just hugs me tighter and lifts me slowly to the sofa which is behind us. He wraps a blanket over me when he sees that I'm still shivering.

After a while I drift off to sleep in Hobi's arms. He gave me some fresh set of clothes so I wasn't cold anymore and wrapped me up in a blanket.

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I wake up with my body aching. My legs feel weak and my face feels so dry. I sit up and realise Hobi is still asleep. I don't want to wake him up so I carefully slip out from under his arms and go to the bathroom.

I look at myself in the mirror and I look like a disaster. My eyes are all dried up, hair looks a mess and my face feels flaky. I try to fix the mess by washing up. My outside appearance might look a bit better but inside I still feel disgusting.

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Hobi's sitting across from me on the sofa, looking worried. Me on the other end looking down at my lap. I know he wants an explanation to why I came here, especially in the state that I was in. But I don't know if I'm ready to tell him. He's never been the type to judge me, he always listens to whatever I have to say but why can't I find the right words this time.

"Do you want to talk about it now y/n?"

The truth is I don't. But I know I have too. It's unfair to tell Amanda everything and not him so I nod my head.

"Well..".

After I finish explaining everything, including all the details about both Jimin and Jae. He just stares at me blankly. I think he's surprised and definitely wasn't expecting it.

"Y/n...come here". He opens his arms out towards me and I gladly go to him.

"You don't have to worry about telling me things like this...I'm always here for you, you know that! I always have been and I always will be".

I smile into his chest, he always knows what to say.

"Don't worry about Jae for now, he's a complete idiot for treating you in that way. Don't even go home to him, you can stay here for as long as you want. I'll pick up anything you want from your apartment. And with Jimin, look forward to the charity ball!"

"But the thing is anything I do with Jimin, I feel guilty about it because I'm still with Jae".

"Well I think you should think about who makes you happy. From the way it sounds Jimin does. Jae isn't worth it. You can't keep using the excuse that you've been with him for seven years. Yes maybe those seven years you were happy but you've found even more happiness in someone else now... You have to move on y/n. Your family will understand your decision and they will support you no matter what. I told you from the beginning that you should have let Jae go for what he did to you. Cheating is never the right answer. What he did to you devastated you but you still went back to him? You were so in love with him at the time but now it's a lot different. Follow your heart y/n".

I sit there in his arms listening to every single word he says. He's right I should have never went back to him when he cheated on me. Things would have been a lot more different now if I just walked away the first time. But I was hopeless.. Now's my chance to get away from him. Yes I do love him but it's not the kind of love that's normal. It's toxic love. The way he treats me isn't right either. I have to move on for my own good.

I look up to Hobi and smile to him. He returns the smile and we just sit there and hug. I'm beyond grateful to have a best friend like him. I couldn't ask for anything more.

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