The problems of us

Chapter 15: Alive and hurting

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"You are suppose to be helping my daughter! Not making it worse! What am i even paying you for?!"

"I understand your anger. I am terribly sorry this happened. My staff should have been watching her, making sure she was ok. I had to deal with a different patient other wise i would have gone with her myself."

I dont want to open my eyes. I dont want to deal with them. All i can here is my mom yelling at Naomi for letting this happen.

I know its not Naomi's fault.

I was hiding for a reason.

Ughhh my arms sting.

I groan out loud and finally open my eyes.

Ive Probably been laying here listening to them fight for like 30 minutes now.

Talk about boring.

"Is she awake yet?" I hear Percy ask from the door way.

I snap my head in his direction and smile slightly.

Im happy to see him here but at the same time... i dont know.

His eyes land on me and he lets out a breath before rushing over to me.

"When did you wake up!?" My mom shouts. "Did you know she was awake?"
She asks Naomi.

"No i-

"Who am i kidding. You probably did."

I roll my eyes and look at percy as he leans over and kisses my forehead.

"Im so sorry. I should have been their for you. I should have done something. I shouldnt have defended Page i just- i dont even know what i was thinking. When i saw you on the bathroom floor with blood everywhere i wanted to do the same to myself because i don't want to be alive without you." He says all in one breath.

I smile and lift my hand up to caress his cheek.

"Its okay, you were only being honest, i shouldn't have over reacted." I say quietly.

"I should have known how sensitive you would be though, i mean anything can make a depressed mind create suicidal thoughts. I would know."

"Yeah, life sucks sometimes."

He smiles and kisses my right cheek, then the left, then my forehead then chin. Then he pauses, looks me in the eyes and kisses my lips.

"If you had died, i would have died too." He whispers before backing away letting my mom attack me in a hug.

I watch him as he leaves the room.

"Thank you for letting him come see me. We are at the hospital right?" I say to Naomi.

"Yeah, he begged me on his knees so how could i say no?" She smiles kindly.

I smile back.

My mom looks at me sadly "why? Why did you do this?"

I take a deep breath "because my mind creates scenarios that make me think its the only option. No you aren't going to understand but i dont care. Just know that im fine and if i were to commit suicide and succeed it would not be because of you. It would be because of this." I point to my head. "Nothing else."

A tear goes down her cheek "how did i not notice before? You were suffering in silence. I should have noticed."

"Mom, you love me, i know that. You did nothing wrong. I did my best to hide it from you, i didn't want you to have to worry about me."

"I just.... I just should have noticed." She whispers.

Its then that i notice my dad isn't anywhere to be seen.
"Wheres dad?"

She glances at me quickly and goes to stand up. "Hes... He just isn't feeling very well so he decided to stay home."

I know shes lying but whats the point in nagging her about it.

"Okay." I say and sit up. "When can i go back to the institute?"

Naomi comes over and smiles "2 days. Can you last 2 more days here for me?"

I smile and nod.

"Good, oh! By the way Pristine wanted me to tell you, and i quote 'how dare you try to leave me, i need you in this world, besides you should have seen mr.lovesick when he found out, he pretty much had a heart attack. Please just date already!' Then Jinn added 'yeah! I totes ship you!'." Naomi says, she even imitated their voices which made me laugh.

"Well i cant wait to see them!" I say.

She smiles and gets ready to go. "Im sorry but i have to get back, i have a therapy session in an hour!"

"Thats okay!"

She smiles, leans over to give me a hug then walks out the door.

"Ill let you get some rest okay?" My mum asks.

I nod and shut my eyes. Im really tired anyway.

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**2 days of boring hospital life later**

"Finally your back!!" Jinn screeches and jumps into my arms.

I laugh and hug her back "i missed you!"

"I missed you too! Im so mad they didn't let us visit you!" She gushes.

"Me too! How has everyone been?"

"Eh same old same old but you know that new girl? Jade? Yeah well shes kinda rude, i mean she knows how to get everyones attention, especially the guys.... But shes rude too."

Ughh i knew she would be a problem. Ive been dreading seeing her for the past 2 days.

"And umm another thing... She been telling people your insane and a psycho. No one really cares anymore though because Percy kinda yelled at them saying stuff like 'aren't we all!' 'Many of you have tried to kill yourself too' 'some of you understand anxiety cause you have it too!' And all that. Pretty much saying so what i mean were all crazy in some way, thats why were hear. We all have a mental disorder, so what? It was pretty awesome."

I smile at Jinn, wow he stood up for me!? I need to thank him later!

I wish i could have seen it though!

"Pristine missed you the most i think. She hasn't eaten anything for 2 days. Shes only had water. The staff have tried everything but she just... She just wont. Shes fainted twice now but she doesn't care." She says sadly.

My eyes widen, why would she do this to herself!? I mean yes i starve myself and sometimes i do fast but shes 9! And 2 days is a long time!

"Ive got to see her!" I say.

Jinn nods and grabs my hand to lead the way.

Is she doing this because of me?

No.. Im not that important.

Pristine.....

I love her like shes the sister i never had. Maybe she feels the same about me.

Her hurting herself hurts me aswell.

I need to stay alive for her. She needs someone to take care of her, to love her.

We need each other.

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Thanks for reading!!

I hope you liked it!? This was kinda a filler chapter to get her back and everything rolling again!

It was necessary though.

Sorry it took so long to update! I mean it was christmas and everything so i was a tad busy.... Watching Netflicks but shhhhh!

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