See Saw

Chapter-21

"The feelings I never accepted till you were gone,
The words I couldn't say,
The wrongs I did to you, are all eating me up."

Yoongi's POV-:

I rushed inside the hospital with Kira in my arms. "Doctor! Doctor!" I began shouting like a madman.My tears blurred my vision. I felt a little relieved upon seeing the doctors and nurse rushing towards us. I held her hand and ran along with the doctors as they headed towards one of the corridor " hold on Kira. Just this time bear a bit . Please I beg you. I have to say so many things to you" I told her while running along with her. Suddenly one of the nurse stopped me " sir you cannot accompany us any further. You have to wait outside". My stomach dropped upon hearing it. I know this rule but I just don't to leave her side. It's just now I have held her hand, how can I just let go.  More tears escaped my eyes. "One second please" I said. She frowned but nodded. I quickly lifted Kira's hand and pecked her. How badly i wanted to see the flustered Kira, the blush she would have got because of what I did now. But now she was just there with no consciousness.

It breaks me.

It hurts.

It's all my fault. Not cherishing her when she was all happy. I was bent on ruining her happiness. How much fucked up my thinking was?  I hate myself more. I should have been the one suffering not her.

"Sir?" I was brought back to the reality.

"Sorry" I rested her hand beside her.
The doctors and nurses then took Kira to the operation room.  I slumped against the wall. Ugly sobs leaving my mouth,  remembering all the words I have ever said to her and all the pains that I have caused her.

"Yoongi!"

I raised my head upon hearing the familiar voice. My mom. Her face had worried frown and tears streaming down her cheeks, she engulfed me into a warm and tight hug. "Don't worry son, nothing will happen to her. She will be fine." She tried to soothe me, unaware of the fact that I am the cause of her sufferings, the real reason why she is here in this hospital.

"Hyung!" I looked back to see the boys staring at me........ sympathetically, but do I really deserve their sympathy after what I have done? The answer is, 'No'. Soon Kira's parents and Shelly reached.

Shelly gave me death glares, I could feel the disgust in her look. Not her fault. I disgust myself more now. But I could care no more. All I want right now is kira's  safety, her well being, I want her back with everyone she loves and admires even if it costs my life.

"Hyung! You okay?" Kookie asked me in a worried tone as he neared me along with Taehyung. "You think I can be okay when she is there suffering because of me! It's all my fault ....... all of this is my fault" I pulled my hairs in frustration. "Don't worry hyung! Noona will be fine. You know she is a fighter right. She isn't afraid of anyone and she will definitely return back to you." He said while patting my back and trying to calm me down. I just hoped for his words to be true.

'Kira you are a fighter right. You even slapped the badass idiot Yoongi, remember. It was a bitter memory but now I want to be slapped by you again and again . Please just stay there and fight for me. Please!'

"I hope so. I will apologise to her once she wakes up. I will do anything and everything to get her back to me, to get her forgiveness. I won't ever hurt her again, I will treasure her for the rest of my life. I promise." I sobbed into Tae's shirt as Kookie patted my back to sooth me but to no use.

"Son?" It was Kira's appa who called me. I could see his eyes filled with tears and anger which was same as that of my father. They both were ready to beat the living shit out of the person who caused such pain and hardships on her dearest daughter. "Yoongi! Tell us what exactly happened. Tell us the entire truth." Dad asked said with a hidden warning of 'Don't even think of lying to me.'