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Chapter-23

No One's POV-:

It was finally the day of Kira getting discharged. The families decided for Kira to stay at her father's, and Yoongi was allowed to have a word with her. Just for once, because he kept on begging for it.

But now when he got the permission to meet Kira, he doesn't know how to face her now. He kept on glancing at the door to her room but couldn't get the courage to enter. The strange look on her face when she faced him, her distant voice when she asked him to leave the room, all making him nervous. 

He sighed. Clearly giving up........for the time being.

So now Yoongi headed to the terrace, to clear up his mind before he could gather up the courage to face Kira.

But soon his is alone time was disturbed
"What are you doing here, Hyung?" Tae asked as he went closer to his hyung.

Tae had actually followed Yoongi when he saw the elder standing outside Kira's room, debating to enter or not, but then, leaving the place. It's what Yoongi had been doing since the day Kira turned her face away from him.

"What are you doing here Tae?" He said, clearly not very happy for being disturbed. He was so annoyed of the situations and of course himself. He was so angry but held it within........but how for how long can he control.

He was fed up of people either pitying him or insulting him.

He accepted all cause he knew he deserved it. So he accepted all those insults and blame.

Not able to put up with his mixed emotions he bombarded Taehyung with his thoughts than giving the younger any chance to speak.

" You come here to tell me how pathetic I am....... to remind me that I don't deserve her or to_"

The elder was cut short when he was hugged suddenly.

"Just stop assuming things on your own!! You never know what the other person is thinking, you are not God. It was this assuming that caused all this problems, and here you are still going on with it."

Tae then broke the hug to see his hyung looking back at him with guilty eyes.

"The person lying there on the hospital bed have loved you and here you are cursing your own fate. It isn't the fate that parted you both, but it was you who chose to part ways with her. Fate gave you a chance to be with her, but you chose to slap her, embarass her, hurt her, molested her, you even tried to take away her chastity hyung! Even you did so much yet that person was always there for you, because she loved you. And now when it's your turn to prove yourself and your love, you are backing away. If you really feel guilty and really want to be with her then try, try harder to get her back. We all need a star in our life sky to brighten it up, and Kira is that star in your life. Don't think of giving up on her, Coz she is worth fighting for!" And with that said he left the place before Yoongi could utter a word.

Tae's words gave a new hope and enthusiasm when Yoongi has lost all hopes.

"I will win you back Kira" he said to himself, determination was evident in his voice.

Kira's POV-:

When I wanted to end it all, when I was all ready to just stop being in this world, I heard a voice that pulled me back to life.

'Hurt me, Ignore me, Kill me but please don't leave don't leave me' 'Coz I have fallen for you. I love you Min Kira'

All these words compelled me back to this world. I also remember the touch, the so familiar, gentle touch that I can recognize without any mistake. The touch that I have longed forever, the voice that I wanted to hear from a long time, the words that I have dreamed of- 'It wasn't a dream right?'

I kept on seeing him standing outside my room. His eyes holding so much emotions, but his mouth remained shut. He seemed in so much of pain, but never cried. He never tried to enter the room, but just simply stood outside close to the door as if guarding the door.

But

Things have changed.

I am scared now. Scared to be hurt again. Scared to love again. Scared to be used again.

He always hated me but now when I made my heart strong enough to push him away, he confessed his love.

'What are you upto Min Yoongi? Why are you doing this?'

I don't have the endurance left in me. I just can't accept his concern now, when I am too broke to let things go. Now, I can't just run to him and hug him tight. I can't  just pretend that everything is fine. I can't just forget the things happened with me. I can't just forgive. I can't.........

The thought kept on repeating in my mind as the silhouette of the familiar man stood outside keeping a guard of the room as I drifted to my dreamland.