The Goldfinch (Fanfic)

I - Chapter 3 "Dreams"

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

_Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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                                                                         I

          Life's about laughter, if you don't laugh you cry. That was my mum's principle, after she died, I forgot to laugh, the pain haunted me every night, every time I curled in sheets, in tears life was never the same.

         Every morning I made breakfast for my father and his girlfriend Xandra, bacon and eggs, Barbour's loved it too, every morning I thought of them and all my past friends... and slowly
I thought of the boy in a black T-shirt, the new kid came from a distant country, what was his home like? what was his breakfast? 

        Days went by I still hadn't figured how to talk to him, I was  wondering why I'm so obsessed with him, in school I'd memorized all his gesture, the way his head moved, the way he walked, his mannerisms... but not much with his voice, he was the quiet type, I also knew that his name was Boris, that time I was the master stalker. 

       "Hey Theodore, would you like to join us in the glee club?" Michelle and Catherine asked with enthusiasm,

       "Yeah sure" so I said without hesitation, I loved music.

          Miche and Cathy were the first friends I'd met in the class, we had the same interest in music and minutes after the class we went for practice. We went home a little later, during the second set on the later bus together with other students who joined clubs. 

           As much as I loved that I wasn't alone anymore, it was also sad that I couldn't see him in the regular afternoon bus. It went for the days and sometimes I asked the driver to drop me somewhere a little bit far from my home. The driver hesitated sometimes, I told him I'd rather walked, I needed to think. It took long minutes to walked towards home, when walks provided me escape, my guardians weren't care less, they were too busy getting high.

                                                                        II

       One afternoon, I walked in the same route, I noticed boys following me, I kept my pace faster, but I think they were the same who follwed me days before, sometimes I walked towards people if I was too afraid, so that they would stop. But there was one incident that I coudn't forget.

       "Hey creepio!"

       someone yelled, I looked back, and same boys pushed me, and I fell on the ground

       "Fight fight fight!"

       "Fight back you creepio!"

       noises rang around, the next thing I knew two boys held me and the other was above my chest punching my face, I shuffled, shake and tried to get rid of him, then he choked me, my head and back torso felt the rough concrete, he tried to pushed me harder and harder.

      "We got you creepio!"

      "What do you want from me?! Let go of me!" I cried desperately, I didn't know them and why they were after me.

       I tried to scream, I couldn't his hands around my neck, I couldn't breath, and suddenly the moment when I knew I was about to faint, I heard someone coming hurrying towards us, sound of hurrying skateboard, I turned my head and saw the silhouette