Outerbanks "falling in love"

Chapter 11-It felt like everything was going to be okay

Chapter 11- It felt like everything was going to be okay

Maddi's pov-

When we got back to the house it was quiet, I kissed JJ goodnight on the porch before going inside just incase John b was still up. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw no one in the livingroom. JJ walked in behind me and plopped on the couch.

"Goodnight beautiful" He whispered. My heart skipped a beat. Sure me and JJ flirted before but I always thought he was just joking but now that I know it's real I can't help but smile.

"Night" I tell him while walking back to my room. I opened my door and jumped from seeing John b on the bed. He sat there hunched over on the edge of my bed. Everyone always said we looked alike but i've never seen it. We both had brown hair, mine was longer. We also both had hazel eyes and freckles but other than that he looks just like dad and I, well I look like mom.

"Sh*t John b, you're gonna give me a heart attack" I complained

"why are you still up?" I sighed John b looked up , he looks... guilty.

"Are you okay?" he questioned.

"Yeah... i'm good, why?" I questioned confused.

"I don't know maybe because you ran off for the last three hours" John b remarked. I sit on the bed next to him. "We used to tell eachother everything, but I feel like latley we've been distant"

I felt instantly guilty. The past few weeks I have been distant. Not on purpose, I just have. Now John b thinks he did something wrong. I sigh and look at my brother, my best friend, my other half. Being twins I guess your supposed to be close but me and John b have always been even closer. Being in the same friend group and spending all those years apart has made our bond strong.

"I'm sorry, I've just had a lot of stuff on my mind latley" I tell him.

"Like what?" John b asks. I take a deep breath to compose myself, I don't want to cry again.

"I-I just, I don't know. I feel like I wasn't a good enough daughter to dad. I mean I didn't live here most my life and when I did I always was out partying or hanging with the pogues" I say as I feel the tear well up but I hold them back. John b took my hand.

"Maddi, dad loved you so much. He always talked about how proud of you he was. And it's not your fault mom made you live with her. You didn't have a choice." John B tells me trying to cheer me up.

"I just miss him so much" I say, my voice cracking. I try to be strong for John b but right now I need him to be strong for me. I need my brother. I lay my head on his shoulder and he leans his head on mine.

"I know, I do too" He says. We stay like that for a few minutes we both let out a few tears. Me more than John b.

"Hey maddi?" John b says lifting his head up, I lift mine off his shoulder to look at him.

"Yeah" I question.

"What happened that night, the night of the party." John b says. I inhale and exhale very slowly trying to compose myself knowing that I should probably tell him. I look up to him an explain everything. How we were dancing, then he asked to take a walk but during the walk I noticed some pills in his pocket. I got really dizzy and tried to leave but he wouldn't let me and when I tried to get away he hit me. I could see John b's face get angrier as I explained more. Once I finished he stood up, I noticed his fist were clinched. Ever since we were little that what he did when he got too angry.

"What's his name?!" John b said pacing the room.

"I don't know" I say honestly, I can remember what happened but I can't remember his name or what he looked like.