Way Back Into Love

chapter seventeen

MARGAUX

FIVE YEARS had passed but still the memories of those years still linger in my mind and heart. As I look at the man in front of me, my hurtful memories of him keep rushing.

"I keep loo---"

"E-excuse me" I stop him by looking at the person I am with. I need to go far from him. I need an air to breath. Seeing him suffocates me. I keep walking without any destination. My eyes keep looking for the person who I think can calm me in this kind of situation.

I stop from walking-running thing when someone grabs my hand. I become stiff as I clearly remembered his favorite perfume. Why he still keep using that when I'm the one who choose that for him.

I'm afraid to look back at him. This is not the time to face him. I need to wake up in this nightmare but I can't.

"I know this is not the time to talk to you. But this is the only opportunity I have. Margaux look at me, please." He said with the voice of a disparate man. How funny it is that he still has an effect to me but it's different now. What I felt for him was different from what I feel right now.

"Do we still have things to say to each other? As far as I remember, we both strangers to each other." I breathe deeply before facing him.

Gusto ko itong sampalin nang paulit-ulit pero tila ayaw gumalaw nang sarili kong kamay. Kung kaylan gusto ko itong saktan ay ayaw naman makisama nang katawan ko.

I see a man with a miserable look. This is not the Noah Vergara I knew. He always looks hype and lovely.

"Only you, who think of me as stranger, Mar. Even once I never thought of forgetting you." He said with calm voice.

Napatawa naman ako sa sinabi nito. How funny could it be this conversation was?

"Noah, the time you cheated on me, it's the time you forget about me and what we have. So don't say that I'm the one who forgot because it causes me big time. I lose my sister because I'm blinded with my love for you." I promised myself that if I see him again I won't sheer a tear in front of him. But my own tears betrayed me.

"Margaux" he step closer and touch my face, wiping my tears away. I don't know why my tears keep on falling.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I—"

"Noah?" A feminine voice calls our attention. We both look at the direction of the one who called Noah's name.

I gasp as I remember her. She's the woman I saw with Noah that night happened. I'm emerging by the moment that I lost in thoughts.

"Celine" a voice behind me stop me from thinking. It's a voice of hatred, longing and pain.

"Gregory" the woman said. I remember her now, she's the woman Gregory hugging in the picture. How could this be happening just in one night? This is so cruel to absurd.

I found myself making a small laugh until I become insane.

Naramdaman ko nalang ang kamay ni Gregory sa balikat ko. I look at him he was confused, so do I, Who wouldn't be?

"This is so funny. What a wonderful night, indeed." Winaksi ko naman ang pagkakahawak ni Gregory sa akin at nagsimula nang maglakad palayo sa lugar na iyon. As I walk my tears keeps on falling.

What I ever did to get this kind of karma? Ang unang lalaking minahal ko at ang lalaking nagpapa-tibok nang puso ko ngayon ay konektado sa iisang babae.

How funny is it? They both love the same person while living me like I'm the dirtiest trash in the world. Walang pagsidlan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. I need to go far. Away from where they stay. Where my place is? I want to know where, so that I won't be left behind.