Changing a Heart

What Are We?

 It was 3am when I texted Natsu. I couldn't help it, it was my first night back home and not at Levy's. I couldn't sleep, whether it was because I was lonely or stressed I'll never know. Being awake at that hour I shamefully hoped I would hear Natsu calling my name from outside my window again. Times were much more simpler back then. 

It took Natsu only a few seconds to reply. I couldn't help but smile, I liked that Natsu never cared for looking cool. When he got a message from me he was eager to reply and had no shame in it.

"I'm coming now" I read the text aloud. Was it a good idea to text him? Probably not. We weren't exactly on the rocks anymore but I wasn't sure if we were together. What if us being alone again was awkward, what if the spark was fully gone. I hoped not. Regardless of the things we have been through I always knew we would end up together. But what if I was wrong?

I spent the next 15 minutes worrying as Natsu walked to my house in the dead of night. He didn't go through the door of course, my aunty would murder him. Instead he used the same ladder he did last time and climbed up. I could hear him climbing up and I felt my heart race. What was I going to say to him? What were we going to do?

I just texted him that I couldn't sleep, I never offered him to come over even though deep down I did want him to. I opened the window and saw his pink or as he would say salmon hair tucked into a black beanie. Dam it was hot.

I let him crawl through and without saying a word he crashed on my bed.

"What is it with us and not being able to sleep on the same nights" He spoke his face in my pillow.

"Who knows, maybe we have some super cool psychic connection" I jumped on the bed next to him. He rolled over to face me and gave me the biggest smirk known to mankind. 

"Maybe it's a soulmate thing" He wiggled his eyebrows. I could feel the heat climb to my cheeks. 

"Shut up" I smacked him with a pillow. He just laughed as I tried to hide my blush under a pillow.

"So Luce, whats keeping you up?" He looked me in the eyes searching for an answer. The thing was, there were lots of reasons and I couldn't pin point it.

1) I was wondering how Levy was being alone 

2) I was still stressing about college

3) The pinkette next to me and what we were?

"College" I chose one reason. Speaking about Levy might make him uncomfortable considering all that went down and I was too embarrassed to have a conversation with him about him.

"You still haven't applied?" 

I shook my head in response. He let out a long sigh before reaching out and grabbing my hand.

"You don't have to go to college, we could just travel the world together" 

I laughed, he was joking of course. Although the idea was tempting ,I knew that he was kidding around. Natsu had plans to become a doctor and he was going to excel at it. Me on the other hand, I just wanted something new. I wanted an adventure.

"Yes I do, I can't just put off my future forever" 

As much as I craved adventure I needed to go college, I needed to get a degree and a job. How else was I supposed to eventually provide for myself and hopefully in the future my family.

"Well why don't you just apply to multiple colleges and then figure out what to do" 

"Thats easier said than done, I haven't written any applications"