Ocean Eyes // A JESSA STORY

Part 3

Nessa:
So, it's been three days since the talk with Josh, and I'm seeing stuff about the fight all over the internet. I'm getting so much hate, that I literally cry in my room at Josh and Katie's house as soon as I go there. We also decided I'm moving in because my home life isn't that great.
One day I was just sitting in the shower, crying, at home with only Josh there. Katie was at a business conference with some important people for her company, Katie's Kloset. She's a fashion designer, obviously.
I was crying extra loud, because someone dm'ed me saying I don't deserve to live. It really broke me. Everyone was blaming me for that guy going rogue off the internet.
As I was crying, I hear Josh knock on the door.

Josh:
I heard Nessa crying and knocked to see if everything was okay.
J: Ness? Everything okay?
Nessa didn't answer and just kept crying. I know she was receiving hate, but I didn't know the extent of it.
J: Nessa, tell me what's wrong. I'm about to break down the door. So, either tell me or I'm coming in.
N: Fine! I just had a really hard day with the hate, okay? So can you leave me alone now?
J: No, Nessa. I'm not going anywhere. Come out and tell me the whole story.
N: Why does it matter to you?
J: Because Nessa; I care about you. I mean, your Katie's best friend. Now, please get done. I'll be waiting on you bed.

She got down and came out in Nike shorts and a grey sweater. Not gonna lie, she looked really pretty. Her eyes were red and puffy, but she still looked beautiful.

J: Now, tell me the whole story.

Nessa:
N: So, this morning I got a dm saying that I'm not worth living and I'm just a waste of air. It's just really hard to handle someone telling me that. I just broke down in the shower and in my head I was thinking what of they're right? What if I am just a waste of living and air?
J: Nessa! Why didn't you tell me sooner?
N: Because I knew you'd act like this. I'm a big girl, Josh. I don't need your help with anything.
I was now raising my voice at him. I was on the verge of tears.
J: Nessa, please know that you are loved and worthy. Anyone would be lucky to know you.
At this point I just fully broke down. Josh just hugged me and I just kept crying into his arms.

Josh:
Nessa just broke down in my arms. I feel so bad for her and I'm sad she didn't tell me sooner. After about 30 minutes of me holding her while she cries, she fell asleep. This felt so right. I wanted to stay with her, but it wasn't right for me to take advantage of what I want while she's asleep. I slowly got up and as I was closing the door, she whispered, "Josh? Please don't go." So I didn't. I stayed with her and held her. I was falling way to fast for this girl. She is smart, funny, beautiful, witty, sweet, and too good for me. I don't even deserve a girl like Nessa. She's every dude's dream girl. And yet, I'm the one holding her as she cries.
I stayed until about 3 in the morning with Nessa. Then, I went back to my room, and slowly drifted off while smiling and thinking about Nessa. I think I want to get closer and ask her to date me, even though I don't know if she feels the same about me. I love this girl. I thought to myself.

Hey babes <3
I decided to update twice today since the other chapter was short and literally so boring. Give me some ideas please!!!!

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