Nessa:
"Josh, just quit ok? I don't need more stress right now," I say to Josh, while frantically running around, trying to catch Drew from crawling onto the stairs.
"Ness, I am not trying to stress you out, ok? I just was thinking about it. I know that they're only 1 year old, but I want more kids. I was just wondering about what you thought," Josh says as he goes to pick up Drew.
Josh had started this conversation about three days ago. He brought it up by asking if I ever wanted more kids. Obviously I do, but just . . . not right now. I only stopped breastfeeding Katherine and Drew two months ago and Josh is already trying to coax me into trying again. Nothing would make me happier than having a huge family with the man I love, but I am so hesitant. I was pretty sick with the twins, and that was scary in itself. The doctor had told me I was high-risk while giving birth to the twins, and now I'm even higher risk if I want to have more.
"Josh, please try and understand that I do want more kids, but I only stopped breastfeeding a couple months ago. You know I am high risk. Just give me a chance to breath, please," I tell him.
Josh looks at me for a minute and them tells me that he's going to go to the bedroom and cuddle with Drew and Katherine while they fall asleep. I decide to call Cynthia and ask what she thinks. Quinton proposed to her a couple months ago and she's ecstatic.
"Hi"
"Hey, Ness. What's going on?"
"Josh wants to start trying again and I don't know what to do. Help," I tell her.
"Trying? As in trying for more babies?"
"Yeah and I don't know what to do,"
"Well, do you want more?"
"Yes! That's the thing. I want more with him so so badly, "
"Well, then what's holding you back?"
"I don't know. I guess it's because I'm high risk,"
"It sounds like you and Josh need to talk this once out. Sorry babes, I gotta go. Love you!"
"Ok, thanks. Love you too, " I say and hang up.
I decide Cynthia is right. I text Josh telling him we need to actually talk about all of this.
After Josh is able to get away from the sleeping babies, he walks down the stairs towards me. I get up and just give him a hug. He seems surprised at first but then immediately hugs back. I look up at him and give him a kiss.
"I'm sorry I went off on you before. I shouldn't have, " I apologize.
"No, Nessa. I'm sorry. I shouldn't be trying to get you to want to start trying again so soon. It was completely insensitive," he says.
"Well let's just put this past us. I also have something to tell you," I tell him.
"What?"
"I do want to start trying again. I'm just nervous because I'm high risk. And it was never that I didn't want a big family with you, Josh. I'm just nervous," I say and his whole face lights up with excitement. He hugs me and lifts me up and cuddles me and kisses every inch odd my face.
January 19:
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JANUARY 30:
NEGATIVE
FEBRUARY 14:
NEGATIVE
MARCH 3:
FALSE POSITIVE
APRIL 30:
NEGATIVE
MAY 23:
NEGATIVE
JUNE 29:
NEGATIVE
JULY 10:
NEGATIVE
AUGUST 13:
POSITIVE
Hey babes<3
Hopefully you enjoyed this update hehe. I have one more final and then I am finally done thank the Lord. Anywho, luv y'all
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