Ocean Eyes // A JESSA STORY

Part 36

Nessa:
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! Happy birthday Drew and Katherine ... Happy birthday to you! Wooooohooo!" I sang, along with all of my and Josh's loved ones. Today was Drew and Katherine's second birthday. I turned four months pregnant this week. After trying for eight months, with a bunch of negatives and a even a false positive, we finally got news that I was pregnant. Don't worry, it's only one baby this time. Josh was right about the sex of the twins, and he thinks this baby is going to be a girl, same as me.

Josh gives Katherine and Drew their little cupcakes for them to smash up and eat after singing Happy Birthday to them.

"What do we say?" Josh asks the kids before letting them eat the whole thing.

"Fank you!" The kids say simultaneously.

"There we go," Josh says and give Katherine a kiss and ruffles Drew's hair.

Needless to say, the kids have changed a lot over the past couple of years; Katherine now has red hair (have no clue where she got that from) and Drew has gotten light brown hair, like Josh and I both had before we started dying our hair darker colors. They both are missing a couple of teeth, but they've almost got them all.

Josh and I haven't really changed at all. I'm still 4 11. Josh still towers over me. We've both gotten a couple new tattoos. Josh got his grandpa's birthday and death day next to his shoulder blade. I got Drew and Katherine's birth date on inside of the top of my left arm.

One very different thing is that we moved into Canada, right along the border, so that it isn't too long of an airplane ride back and forth between California to see our friends. We both agreed it would be beneficial to our family to be closer to his family, since I don't have the best family life. My parents got a divorce when I was 12ish, and let's just say it left a lot of leftovers of old feuds.

"Nessa!" I heard yelled from the direction of house. I look over and Addison is looking at me frantically as Avani waves me over.

My face quickly goes from happiness to concerned. As I rush over, I hear crying. "What? What is it? Who's crying?" I ask quickly as I follow the girls to the guest bedroom we have in the back of the house.

"Its Dixie. We have a...," Avani pauses, "a situation," she continues after looking at Addison for guidance on what to say.

I rush to the guest room as fast as my pregnant self could and find Dixie sitting on the floor, hysterical, while Cynthia, Sab, Charli, Jorja, and Amelie crowd around her, soothing her.

I immediately sit kn the floor and hold her while she cries into my shoulder. After she starts to calm down, I finally ask what's wrong.

"I just got a call from the doctor, a-a-and," is as far as Dixie gets before she starts crying again. I continue to talk to her gently and she finally spits it out.

"She says I'm infertile," she sobs.

"Oh, Dixie, baby," I cry with her, not even being able to fathom what it would be like to not have Katherine and Drew.

"Ness? Nessa, you in here?" I hear from Josh who is yelling from the hallway.

I run out so that he'll stop yelling. As I'm going up to him, I wipe the tears off my face. "Hey, hey, what's wrong, baby?" He tenderly asks.

"Dixie she, um, she just, um, she found out she is, um, infertile," I tell my husband.

"Aww no. Should I go get Noah and have them get home?" He asks.

"Go get him, but they aren't flying home tonight in the state they'll be in. They can stay in the guest room," I declare.

He nods and kisses my head and goes to get Noah. He will explain everything to him on the way.

I go and sit on the couch, just in shock. I live Josh, but my life would be so incomplete without my babies. Its makes me want to just sob imagining what Dixie and Noah are about to go through in the future with all of this.

Noah comes in with red eyes and Josh is side hugging him. I walk up to him and hug his mid section, and he just breaks down, while I stroke his hair and sooth him.

I take him to the guest room, and motion for the girls to get out. As I go to shut the door, I see Dix stand up and sob into Noah.

I feel so much pain for them.

Hey babes<3
Hope your xmas was good if u celebrate. Kinda got snap without anyone knowing after being told that I could not get it, but know I'm talking to a boy that moved schools last year, and its going great. Btw I dont have a crush on him. But yeah, how are y'all? Anywho, luv y'all

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