I woke up to find Mikey's arm draped over my body. I slowly and carefully peeled it off. Last night we took out a blow up mattress and all slept in the living room.
I walked into the kitchen to find Lilly stirring a mix for what I assumed was pancakes.
"Hey Lilly."
"Good morning Violet." She responded with a bitter tone.
Lilly was the sweet type. Not typically a follower, but not necessarily original.
"Is everything alright?" I asked
"Just fine." She said while raising her eyebrows.
"Lilly, c'mon you can tell me if something's wrong."
She turned to me and crossed her arms. "I have liked Michael since the 6th grade when him and Luke became friends and you just come in here and he likes you right away" She said now in tears.
"Lilly listen, I like Michael, but I could never date him. I live so far away, we'd never see each other. Plus I don't really... well... I don't date boys."You're a lesbian?" She looked at me innocently.
I giggled a little bit. "No I'm not a lesbian. I just don't date. I have before, but now I just don't."
"Why?"
And just like that, all the memories came back.
"I don't like to talk about it." My smile faded and I turned away to hide the tears building up. "Are these pancakes? I love pancakes." trying to change the conversation.
I turned back to face her and saw Michael standing in the hall.
"You don't want to date me?" He forced out. "And you like me?"
"Michael I..."
"I have to go."
"Wait Michael don't..." He walked out quickly.
I sighed and looked out the window to see him walk home. He slammed his fist down onto his car and got in it. He drove away quickly and I saw his car turn.
Breakfast was quiet. My tear stained cheeks warned everyone not to say a word.
Of course I like Michael. I like him so much. But I'm afraid to trust. I'm not just afraid to trust him, I'm afraid to trust anyone. I don't trust my mom. She leaves at the worst times to go on those stupid business trips. I did trust my dad. He's unfortunately not around anymore. Alice and Brooklyn are the only people I can trust.
They're the only people I can love. The only people I've known to love. The only people who I truly know love me.
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Dark Paradise (A Michael Clifford fanfiction)
Fanfiction"All I have is you guys, but I couldn't ask for anything more." I rose my glass to the people I thought I would hate and realized they're the ones I love the most. The place I used to dread became my dark paradise. The bitter sweet taste of my world...
