Lost In Captured Thoughts

Chapter Twenty Three: Repetision

(Katy's POV)

I awoke to a piercing scream which made me bolt up instantly. I got out of bed and ran to the source of the scream, Pearl.

I checked her room but she wasn't in there. I checked the bathrooms, she wasn't in any of them either. I run down the stairs, still hearing her scream. I saw her on the kitchen floor holding her ears with her hands and her body was sprawled out on the floor as she violently thrashed around. I hurriedly came over to her and grabbed her around her waist, pulling her close to my chest.

"Sssh baby it's okay... Mommy's hear.." I say quietly looking into her eyes to reassure her she is save.

"WHAT THE HELL WAS ALL THAT NOISE FOR?!?!" John suddenly burst into my kitchen and had the most angry look on his face I had ever seen.

"John calm down!!!" I say angrily, I don't appreciate his attitude towards Pearl one bit.
"The voices they won't stop, they never stop, please stop them!!!" Pearl cries out like a wounded dog that's howling in pain.

For the first time in my life, I don't know what to do in this situation. I just look at her helplessly unable to move.
All I know that I can do that used to send her to sleep is to sing. Well it's worth a shot! I think to myself as I stroke her hair trying to calm her down. I hear John scoffing me in the background but I just ignore him and start singing softly.
"They say one man's trash is another man's treasure, when I found you it was all pitter-patter..." I felt Pearl's heart beat begin to slow down to a natural pace and her beautiful blue eyes begin to shut. I smile at my beautiful angel, wondering how I deserved her..

"You Know John, I do not appreciate you judging my own flesh and blood, I know your pissed with me for not telling you but there's no need to take it out on her after all she's been through." I say quietly but very firm and cold. I begin to lift her up and put her on the largest sofa. She's light so light, unhealthily light.
"Well Katy your right. I am pissed because you didn't tell me, I bet you told that husband of your's Russell about her." John waves his around in annoyance. Russell that name still makes my heart ache and sends shivers down my back. I am still not fully over him and the trauma, to be honest when will I ever be?
"No I didn't tell Russell..." I felt my throat tighten as I said his name making me form a lump in my throat.

"Your just one big slut aren't you, not even telling your husband that you had our own baby which would turn out to be a lying slut just like her mom" I felt my tense up and unexpectedly, I ran up to John and gave him a hard punch in his jaw. I looked at my hand completely shocked by what I had just did. If it was even more possible, I saw John's eyes turn a darker and colder shade of brown almost looking black. He was fuming. He grabbed my small wrists and put as much in his hands as he possibly could.
"Don't you ever do that again..." He could barely get his words out. I felt my body tense up, I tried to pull away, but he wouldn't let me go.
"John let me go.." I say trying to move but he still gripped onto me with the same angrily look.
"Let me go!!" I say but before I knew it I felt a massive pain suddenly erupt in the side of my face, making me fall to the floor. I feel my body tremble as he got closer and closer to me.

"If you tell anyone about this, you and your pretty little slut will be sorry and will pay for what you've done" I nod silently, trying to learn back my tears.I cannot seem weak.

John steps away from me and goes back to his room. It's happening again, why can't I find a man that doesn't hurt me and that loves me for me. Am I really that hard to love?
I curl up into a ball and cried my eyes out for what seemed like a lifetime.

(Third persons view)

Hours had passed with incident with John and Katy. It was now morning and Katy hadn't slept at all after Pearl's breakdown. Katy stayed in the say curled up ball was in a couple of hours ago, unable to move.

However, Pearl had awoken from the sofa, completely forgetting about her whole break down last night...........

(Pearl's POV)

I stretched my legs and yawned as I got up. Why am I in the living room? I wonder to myself, I'm pretty sure I slept in own room, unless I sleep walk but I think I would know if I sleep walk. I brush it off and walk into the hallway and stretch. I wonder where Katy is? I chuckle to myself as I walk into the kitchen. She's probably still sleeping. I hear a sniffle coming from the living room, what was that? I grab my orange juice and walk back into the living room. I peer behind the sofa and see Katy lying in a ball all curled up and stiff. I see blood the side of her face and bruises, what an earth is going on?

"Katy??" I say as I put my glass down and lie on the floor so I am directly facing her. I look into her eyes, they're all bloodshot and her nose is red and her whole face looks so tired and hurt. I rub her back hopefully making her feel slightly better.

"How did you know I liked that?" Katy asked her voice barely making any noise. I pass her my cup of orange juice and help her sit up. She hungrily- well thirstily down my glass.
"Well I am your daughter after all I think I've inherited some traits and interests."I smile at her and I continue to rub her back. Katy's eyes had suddenly gone dimmer then before now turning s murky grey colour when mentioned the words her daughter "your daughter". Is she ashamed of me?
"At least you haven't inherited my slutty ways..." I hear Katy mumble tears in her eyes.
What makes her think she's slutty? She's far from it!
"What? Katy your not slutty your the kindest most giving person I have ever and that met, in my books that means your far from slutty!" I exclaimed as I look into her eyes. something's not quite right, I can tell...
"Katy has someone been saying stuff to you?" I say slowly, but I already knew the answer.