Too Classic for Him

I. There She Goes

There she goes again

Pulsing through my veins

And I just can't contain

This feeling that remains

Parang may pumipintig sa sintido ko. Nahilot ko iyon ng wala sa oras.

"Okay ka lang?"

Nakagat ko yung loob ng ibabang labi ko. It's a kind of habit I can't erase when I'm agitated. Nakita ko ang pagbuka ng bibig niya. He even scratched his head. He seems a little too shy. And had it any other circumstance, I would have smiled at the cuteness of it. The cuteness of him. Cute? My ass. He's the epitome of yummy boy next door delicacy. Yes, a delicacy that I would be licking and... I would have... I would have what?

"Hello. Miss Trisha to earth."

Nanlaki yung mga mata ko at sabay napailing sa naisip. Nababaliw na ata ako. Kung ano ano ng pumapasok sa utak ko.

His hair is a little disheveled, must be from sleep. I can only think of my hands running into his hair and... damn. "Yeah. I guess?" Napalunok ako. Yeah, I guess I'm not okay. What am I even thinking?

He tried to smile at me. "Ahm..." Napakamot siya sa ulo at iyon lang ang nasabi niya. Nakita ko ang pagkunot ng noo niya. Yung pilit niyang pagngiti sakin. He's only wearing an old washed out jeans na may tastas sa tuhod at puting t-shirt. Very typical college guy. "So... wala dito si Kuya Luke. Hmm... anong plano mo?" He gave me that hesitant dimpled smile.

Lalo akong napakagat sa labi ko. I would have been the smart, older, more mature sensible person here. But I wasn't. And seriously, just looking at him... I realized that I'm not. I could even tell Luck to go fck himself right now.

I'm not mature enough to think I can handle this. And I also realize that introverts like me do daydreams and erotic fantasies. A lot.

And that includes the living flesh right in front of me. And I swear to God, mom would have screamed at me right at this minute.

Dominic is five years younger than you are Trisha!!! And still at school. With his Masters degree in Physical Ed. Yummm.

Hey, I'm already twenty-nine anyway. Supposed to be thinking of settling down, having kids blah blah. But lo and behold, people like me who's used to hiding from the world also gets deprived. But the thing is... maraming mali. One, this is Luke's hot younger male cousin. And I'm not a cougar. I just don't fantasize any guy who's hot and younger than my withering age. Two, Luke's grand scheme doesn't seem to be working out fine. Especially when it includes the word elopement. Wala na akong pera. Sa edad na twenty-nine, wala akong financial independence. Yes, I graduated at the top of my class abroad for Accountancy. Pero ng malaman ng parents ko na wala akong balak magpakasal sa psychiatrist na pinakilala nila sakin... na mukang ako pa ata ang mauunang baliwin para sa mamanahin ko sa yumaong abuela, pinutol ng parents ko ang credit cards at debit cards when I ran away from home. They even seize my access to my inheritance from my lola.

They never would have thought I'd do something like elope with my ex-boyfriend at this age and time.

And they didn't even know that my introvert ex-boyfriend happens to be gay. And probably missing.

And third, Luke called me earlier to say sorry that he eloped with someone else. Dahil closeta ang ex ko. And that I should probably be killing him right now with my own two hands. Pero wag daw akong magalala... because he can provide living arrangements for me. Nakatitig lang ako ng matagal kay Dominic. And he seems to be trying so much to look for answers why his older cousin's blast from the past came knocking on his door.