Too Classic for Him

Special Chapter: Wedding Night

I woke up with a fear this morning
But I can taste you on the tip of my tongue
Alarm without no warning
You're by my side and we've got smoke in our lungs

Kanina pa ako kinakabahan.

"Trish?" Kinatok na ako ni Dominic. Oo nga pala.

"Halos tatlong oras ka na dyan a. Baka naman?" Natatawang sabi nito sakin.

Nakakapangatlong sabon, shampoo at banlaw na din ako. Goodness. Why am I so nervous? Bakit napakadali lang sa iba samantalang napakahirap sakin? I couldn't even think straight. Ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko. What if he sees me and dislikes my body? What if ma-turn off siya sa mga bacne ko? I had scratches here and there. Well, hello. Tao po ako.

What if hindi siya matuwa kasi wala akong pwet?

My boobs are a so-so lang. Tipong pang-pisong pandesal lang magkabila. What if... "Oh, shit Trish!"

Dominic and I made out a hundred times. But we neve crossed the line. And I was so thankful for that. Eto yung mga panahong naiisip kong... sana lumandi na lang ako nung college. Or after college. I might have gotten an experience or two. Yung all the way experience para hindi ako nangangarag.

Pero hindi rin naman ako nagsisisi na pinakawalan ko ito at binigay ko na lang sa kung sinong Poncio Pilato, just because.

Just because I wanted to be with somebody. Just because nagboboyfriend ang lahat ng kaibigan ko at ako ay hindi. Or just because... I wanted to be someone even if I wasn't yet ready.

But I'm not judging women who wanted to live their own lives. We all have different views and we should respect that. And respect is a big word.

"Trish?" Tawag niya ulit sakin after 30 minutes. "Pwede naman tayong mag-cuddle lang. Hindi naman natin kelangang madaliin."

Nakatitig ako sa pintuan. I wanted to ask if he's saying the truth. But I knew he waited too long for this. I mean, he wasn't saying anything pero... his action could tell. I could tell that he'd been trying so hard to control it. Ang selfish ko naman kung kasal na kami pero ipagkakait ko pa sa kanya.

But I couldn't help but be afraid. It's human nature to be insecure after all.

Tumayo na ako sa bathtub at nagtapis. Nagka-wrinkles na yung balat ko dahil sa sobrang babad. I was so paper white at muka nakong multo. My hair was so black against my white skin. I closed my eyes. Pagmulat ko ay ako pa din naman iyong nakikita ko sa mirror.

Lumabas ako ng nakatapis. Nauna na siyang nag-shower kanina. Pinili naming dito sa Amanpulo mag-honeymoon. Super ganda saka parang nasa paraiso. And of course, this was the first time I'd be traveling with a... hindi na pala boyfriend. Husband na.

Kinilig ako bigla despite the kaba at takot.

I opened the door and smiled shyly at Dominic. Nakita ko yung pagpipigil niyang mangiti. Iyan ba? Iyan ba ang magka-cuddle lang?

Hinintay ni Dom na lumapit ako. I would have applied lotion but somebody advised me not to on my honeymoon. Syempre alam na. Andrea knew how to give advises like that.

Lumapit ako kay Dom. "Can we?"

"Ha?" Tanong niya.

"Just cuddle?"

Napangisi ako nung nag-pout siya. Natatawang niyakap niya ako sa bewang. Buhok ko na lang ang basa pa pero halos tuyo na ang katawan ko at nakatapis na lang ako. He hugged me for a few minutes. Nakaupo siya sa kama. Nakatayo ako sa gitna ng hita niya. Nakayakap siya sa bewang ko. We were like that for a few minutes.

Then he reached out and cupped my face. Napayuko ako ng hinalikan niya ako. We kissed like there was no tomorrow. Yung mga ganong klase ng kiss. Like we could go on and on and on like this. He was caressing my waist. At hindi ko napansin na nilaglag niya na yung towel ko. Hiniga niya na din ako.

"I-I have no boobs." Bulong ko.

Ngumisi ito at lumingon sa dibdib ko. "Meron naman. Hindi lang malaki."

I would have hit him when he laughed and bit my shoulder not too roughly. And then kiss it. Napapikit ako nung niyakap niya ako at hinalikan.

"I love you, maliit man boobs mo."

Gusto kong magmura pero tumawa siya ng malakas. Pagkatapos ay tinitigan niya ako ng matagal. Kinuha niya yung kamay ko at tinulungan ko siyang maghubad ng t-shirt. He cupped my face and kiss my lips, jawlines, shoulder blades...

And down to paradise.

"I love you, Dom." Bulong ko sa kisame.

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Nabitin ka no? Hindi ko na po ginawang R-18 ang TCFH. Nung sinulat ko siya, it wasn't my my intention to be that kind of story. Siguro Hansel and Gretel at the Creep pa. So, sorry! Imagination na lang dear. :)