Your POV
I wrapped the plain white sheets closer to my body, feeling so gross inside and not being able to figure out why I had done what I just did. Elijah's arm was wrapped around me close to him but all I wanted to do was flee far away from here. I felt disgusted with myself for letting it get this far, I just didn't know how I could be so stupid and make such a drastic decision. No I wasn't a virgin or anything but I rarely ever got the nerve to sleep with guys because I had respected myself too much just to throw myself at anyone to sleep with. I turned to my side and got a good look at Elijah, I looked at him as he slept next to me peacefully. That was when I had decided this had gone to far and that I couldn't do this anymore, I didn't know why I hadn't cut it off the day after our date. I knew I needed to walk away from this and let us both realize what the truth was. He was nice and sweet don't get me wrong, but I already had taken the time to look behind that and I saw us going nowhere. Slipping out of bed I walked over to where my clothes were strewn out around his floor and slipped them on. Once I grabbed my shoes, I quietly walked out of the spare room and out the front door to begin the long walk home.
"Hello", I croaked out answering my buzzing phone.
"Hey honey, I just left my child development class. Do you still wants to hang out tonight", Serena had cheered through my phone
"It's actually not a good time Serena, maybe we can reschedule", I sniffled.
"Love what's wrong", Serena sounded worried.
"What happened", she asked me worried.
"If I tell you, you're going to be mad at me", I sniffled.
"Never, you know I won't judge you. Now tell me love", she insisted.
"I slept with Elijah", I chocked back a sob.
"What happened after", she said shocked.
"I felt so ashamed of myself, I didn't know what to do. I went with my first instinct of getting up and leaving", I sniffled.
"Are you on your way home", she asked.
"Yes", I sniffled.
"I'm on my way over", I heard the phone click signaling she had hung up.
Hugging my jacket closer to my body, I continued the long journey home with the millions of thoughts buzzing through my head. I didn't even realize that I was crying till I felt one of my tears hit my hands. Maybe I wouldn't ever find love, I mean at this rate it seemed like it was nearly impossible. I quickly wiped my eyes because I knew that wasn't 100% true, I shook those thoughts out of my head as I climbed the stairs of my home and stuck my key in the lock and turning it. I ran up to my room and threw myself on my bed, immediately breaking down and I started to full on sob. I couldn't wait till Serena came over and I could fall into her arms and cry.
