I was never good at dealing with people when they were emotional, funny since I am a girl and we are emotional beings but hey what can I say. Looking into Elijah's hazel eyes however, it nearly killed me to see him in this much pain and that I was the cause of it. I hated to be the bad guy, and the tears that fell from his eyes and down his cheeks making him look so vulnerable made me feel even worst then I had originally. I saw my error in things and wished I hadn't been so selfish into making things bigger then they were. It was clear to me he was ready to give me all of his heart while I only gave him a quarter of it.
"So that's it huh?", he sniffled.
"Look, it's not you. It's me, it's just....", I stopped when I saw a prominent frown took over his lips.
"Don't give me that shit, that it's not you its me. We'll know that's a lie", he scoffed.
"Look, you may not understand me ok. I'm trying to find myself and figure out what doesn't make me numb", I muttered angrily.
"Well maybe you should have done that before you go out and hurt people left and right", he spat angrily through tears.
"Look I understand you're mad. You have every right to be. It is what it is and I wish I could take it back but I can't. So we could be adults and move on from this ok", I got up from the bench I sat on while talking to him and shrugged my jacket on.
Slinging my bag over my shoulder I headed off campus to my home. With everything that was going on here, I knew I couldn't stay another minute there. I was more and more angry with myself for letting things get this bad. I should have treated Elijah like the other guys. Keeping them an arm's length and my heart cold. It wasn't till I let myself get emotional and clingy that things got messy. I wiped my tears as I walked , I hadn't brought my car in hopes that Serena would give me a ride to my place since she spent the night. I knew things were a mess at the moment but I just hope things would get better.
"Honey what's wrong?", my dad questioned once he peered up at me through his mountains of paper around him.
"Nothing, I just...", I shook my head and climbed the stairs to my room.
Slipping off my jeans, I slipped into bed falling asleep instantly.
