𝕃𝕆𝕊𝔼ℝ • conan gray

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟛𝟜 • 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝

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March 26, 2020

•Conan•

Ever since that day at the coffee shop, I haven't stopped thinking about Prairie; she never changed. The only thing I noticed was that she looked even more beautiful than I remembered.

What.

Don't worry, Conan; it's normal to say someone's beautiful when you're in a relationship with another person.

Right?

There was something strange about her though. I mean, yeah she didn't change but somehow my gut tells me she's going through something tough. I just couldn't put my finger on what it was.

That was until Liz came in. When she kissed me, I saw it in Prairie's eyes. I knew at that moment that she hasn't been herself lately. She looked in pain.

I was slightly annoyed at Liz when she did that, if I'm being honest. She knew what Prairie went through during the tour, yet she still does it out of spite.

She wasn't usually like this. It wasn't the same as when we started dating, where she'd be very affectionate towards me.

But these days, she's acting very odd. First she's so clingy and the next, she's cold and distant. I noticed she gets particularly sappy and shit when we're around other people. It almost feels like she's just putting on a show.

That's what I'm scared of; the fact that she just might be using me for her own intent. I don't want to believe that so I just give her the benefit of the doubt.

As usual, I've been FaceTiming Ashley nonstop. One day we were just chatting about random things when the topic of Prairie came in.

"You should talk to her, Cone." Ashley states.

"Why would I need to?" I scoff. "Because she's your friend, and you haven't talked to her in forever, excluding that one time in the cafe when you made her cry."

"I did not make her cry!" I defend myself as Ashley just gives me an 'are you sure?' look. "Well, I'm pretty sure she did. I can feel it." she remarks.

"Okay, let's say I do like her—"

"Ha, I knew it!"

"That was hypothetical, Ash..."

"Hypothetical my ass." I hear her mumble over the phone and I just roll my eyes. "If I did like her, I couldn't do that because I'm with someone else for god's sake!"

"Don't be absurd, Cone. It's clear to see that you still like Prairie over your girlfriend. You said it yourself, she never left your mind this entire time." she argues.

"You're just making things more complicated by being with Liz." I don't reply. "But if you're happy with Liz, then I'm fine with that I guess."

"I need to think all this through..." was all I could muster up. "Aight, I have to go now. I'm telling Prairie about talking to you—"

"No, don't!" I cut her off, thinking it was a bad idea to text Prairie at this time. "You sure? 'Cause what I sent her just now might come across as weird."

"You already texted her?! I— just don't continue." I say with an exasperated sigh. "Alright, mister bossy pants." Ashley laughs.

"I gotta go now, Ash. I'm gonna go do something that won't make me bored."

"Oh, so talking to me makes you bored? Wow, some friend you are." she says dramatically and I stifled a laugh. "Bye, Ash, talk to you later. Love you."