Captured and Saved (Artist Series #1)

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Halos magpagulong-gulong na ako sa kama ngunit hindi pa rin mawala sa isip ko si Sebastian at ang araw na iyon. It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep.

Isang linggo na mula ng inilibot ko siya ngunit lagi pa rin siyang sumasagi sa isip ko. That night after he took me home, I was really bothered as to why I am feeling strange emotions with him kaya't one week na rin akong hindi nagpupunta sa beach sa umaga dahil iniiwasan kong makita sya. Nagtataka na rin ng mga tao dito sa mansyon dahil ngayon lamang ako lumiban sa routine kong ito.

I just don't want to see him hanggat hindi ko pa naso-sort out ang nararamdaman ko, its also a good thing because I get to focus more with my cousins' presence. I decided to go downstairs and maybe get some milk to help me get some sleep. Nang bumaba ako ay naroon din si Abuela na ipinagtaka ko.

"Buenas noches Abuela, por qué sigues despierto?" pagtatanong ko sa kaniya kung bakit pa siya gising.

"I can't sleep iha, I gues I miss your Abuelo" nakangiti niyang sagot sa akin.

Limang taon na mula ng pumanaw si Abuelo because of lung cancer, mahilig kasi syang magsigarilyo noong nabubuhay pa sya. Nilapitan ko si abuela at nanlalambing na yumakap.

"How about you apo? Is there something bothering you? I know you won't go out in the middle of the night here in the kitchen if you are okay." sabi nya sa akin.

"I've been bothered these past few days po abuela, someone keeps on invading my mind" mahinahon kong sabi sa kaniya.

"Get what you're supposed to and join me in the terraza and tell me all about it" malumanay niyang sabi.

After getting a glass of milk ay inalalayan ko si abuela patungo sa terraza at magkatabi kaming umupo. Ikinuwento ko sa kanya ang una naming pagkikita ni Sebastian, inamin ko ring kasama ko sya ng magpaalam akong maglilibot at tipid na ngiti lamang ang isinukli niya sa akin.

"Ano po sa tingin nyo ang kailangan kong gawin Abuela? I'm confused I've never been in this kind of situation before, you know me abuela, all my life I've only been surrounded by our family, my friends, and my love for photography" I helplessly said to her. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko bago sumagot.

"Face him iha, akapin mo ang mga katanungan mo, only then you will get the answer behind your feelings, nunca sabrás si no lo intentarás" payo niya akin.

"But what if I get humiliated abuela, paano po kung hindi ganoon ang nararamdaman niya sa akin which is very possible dahil we just met recently, maybe he'll think that I'm just a kid who lacks attention" nag-aalala kong sambit.

"Nonsense! Gomez's are never a coward especially the women in this family, didn't I tell you that I am the one who chased your abuelo, he may be the one who decided to brought me here and marry me, but I am the one that pursue him until he felt the same way for me." pagmamalaki niya sa akin.

"You know iha, you will never know unless you try, e ano kung hindi kayo parehas ng nararamdaman, which is most likely dahil kakikilala nyo palang, nevertheless you have  to accept it, maybe its just an infatuation. But if you really feel that you like him then make him like you back, hindi uso sa mga apo ko ang pagpapakipot" nangangaral niyang turan.

"Still I just literary met him a few days ago abuela! What will he say about me? Na malandi ako?" I exaggeratedly told her.

"Did you know that just a glance made me fall with your grandfather? I had my doubts with him of course, and I was really not a fan of love at first sight, that's not possible to me, pero dahil gaya ng sinasabi ko sa inyo, paano mo malalaman kung hindi susubukan? I followed him and it proved that your abuelo is worth my efforts and pride" she said while caressing my hair.