all kpop groups, and k-hip-hop people. it can go from boy to girls ! this book is dedicated to all my chocolate / brown queens out there !
STARTED: Nov 21, 2018
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if you can change one thing in the world today,, what would it be ?
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[ gwangju, south korea, 9:49 pm ]
as i get all lotioned up, i slid into my slik like covers. wooseok still down stairs in the kitchen i assume. altough i have a heartbreaking decision to to night, i still care for this man, i no longer know. as i got out of the covers, i put on my slippers. afterwards i headed down stairs. i looked towards the living room from the stairs. i didn't see him, so i went further, and headed towards to the kitchen, i looked, and to my suprise i didn't see him. i took the opportunity to text jaehyun.
hey jaehyun is lena there ?
fuck !
is wooseok there ?
no...
im omw y/n stay there
i turned my phone off, and just cried emotionless. at this point i headed down towards the basement, to look at the box once more. once i was there i looked for it, it wasn't there, i threw the WHOLE basement around, trying to find it. at this point i was screaming, and yelling, mixed in with tears. i couldn't keep it i, i tried for the baby, for wooseok, for me, but i just... i just need it. i came across a picture of wooseok and i. it was taken in highschool.
i lost it, and i just cried, and cried, and cried. i cried so much that i screamed. i screamed so hard, jaehyun came to me. " Y/N !! ARE YOU OKAY ? " he looked around to see the tore up basement, and then he looked at me, he saw the picture i held in my hand, but his expression grew terrified. " Y/N COME ON, WE HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL !! " he picked me up, and when he did that, i saw the blood stream down my leg, i turned aroud to see a pool of blood. i instantly panicked. " don't panick, it'll make it worse " i took his words lightly, but i still listened.
[ gwangju, south korea, 10:58 pm ]
" miss, your baby seems to be fine " jaehyun let out a breath of relief, not so much me " are you sure sir, it was a lot of blood, like a big pudd- " jaehyun puts his hand on my belly, and looked at me with endurance. i looked back up at the doctor with pleading eyes. " miss if it makes you feel better i can give an ultrasound " i nodded, and the doctor gave me a reasuring smile, and left. as he left, wooseok came... with lana. i instantly ignore their presents. jaehyun looked at me, and looked back at them. " Y/N are you okay ? " wooseok asked, and tried to give me a kiss, but i moved my face. " fuck you ". at this point jaehyun was standing in beetween wooseok and i. " jaehyun what are you doing ? " lana asked with curiosty. jaehyun looked at lana in disgust. " boy if you dont move- " wooseok said trying to push past him, but jaehyun blocked him.
" jaehyun " i looke at him, and signaled him to take lana out and talk to her. while i do the same here. jaehyun eyed wooseok, but grabbed lana by her arm, and dragged her outside. " y/n, what's going on ?? " i started to tear up, but i didn't. " wooseok, are you sleeping with lena ? " he chuckled, and got closer to me trying to hold my hand " y/n why would yo- " " I SAW THE POLAROIDS... wooseok, don't lie to me.. not now.. are you sleeping with her ? " his eyes we're full, and his words we're scrambled
"y-y/n, i- " " got damnit woo spit it the fuck out " he sighed, and looked up at me with his, emotionless face, and teary eyes. " y/n, i didn't mean too, i was lost, and- " " and nothing woo, YOU FUCKING CHEATED- " " WELL YOU WEREN'T A SAINT EITHER " i looked at him, and i squinted, i was just trying to understand why he would say anything like that. i've be faithful to him, as much as i know i haven't sleep with anyone else, and this baby is his. " what do you mean woo ? " i said as i grew tired of thinking " im saying, you're the reason why i slept with her, you weren't there, so lena was " he said as he sniffled his tears away. " WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN WOO ! I WAS ALWAYS THERE, YOU FUCKING LEFT AND I WAS HERE YOU LOOKED THE OTHER WAY AND I WAS STILL HERE !! "
" y/n when you left for that trip, in brazil for 10 months, and my mother died, thats when it started, i was alone, and i was vulnerable- " " okay okay, i understand, but cheating ?? woo really " his head was low and sniffles we're heard " im so sorry y/n, please just take me back, please, i didnt mean any of it " i looked at him and chuckled " so you didn't me those WHOLE ASS BABIES ! woo- " my words were instantly cut of by the opening of the door. i looked up and seen two doctors, one with a cart full of supplies, and another with a needle . i started to panick. once the cart got closer the doctors started to talk. " its okay realax, my name is dr. eun, and this is nurse lee, she will help me assist you with the questions, and other things ! " i nodded in affirmation " would you please lay back ! i will be giving this tranqulizer, it is indeed a shot into the belly area, it would calm the nerves, and make sure the baby is okay ! "
as she was explaining she was liftting the bed up, and put on her gloves. she grabbed the needle from the other nurse and put it on the table, with the other supplies. she grabbed a cloth and put alcohol on it, then she sprayed nummbing alcohol on the area she was gonna jab the needle in me . she wipped it then grabbed the needle, my heart rate went up. as soon as she stuck me with wooseok grabbed my hand, and i squeezed it out of spite and pain.
afterwards she grabbed the gel, and put it on my belly to do the ultrasound, thats when jaehyun came back in without lena, looked over and seen him and smiled,a nd he did too, but it instantly went away when he saw me holding hands with wooseok. i leg go of his hand, and looked back towards the screen, and when i did i seen the thing i was proud of, the thing that is keeping me sane. i cried, the first time this night i was happy to cry, or shed a tear . i looked at wooseok, and he was in the same state i was in, and suprisingly jaehyun too .
[ 1 month later gwangju, south korea, 10:27 am ]
that same night woo slept somewhere else, and jaehyun stayed the night with me. in the same night i burned the polaroids, and made something with jaehyun. lets just say jaehyun and i are going to be together for sometime i guess. woo left permantly, but i agreed to let him see the baby , jaehyun is done with lena, and she is somewhere with woo. it seems like woo is not happy with her, ive been getting voicemails left and right, but ive simply ignored them, if its not me reaching out to him first, then there is no point, im the prego one here not him !
