all kpop groups, and k-hip-hop people. it can go from boy to girls ! this book is dedicated to all my chocolate / brown queens out there !
STARTED: Nov 21, 2018
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[Hong Kong, China]
'Why am I here... Why do I keep letting this happen to me.' Is all you can think. You were sitting in Kris' apartment. Kris was one of Jay's many friends. You were sad and hurt eternally, but externally you threw a smile on your face. All you try to do was please Jay, make him happy, but you stayed. You stayed cause every time you try to leave he begged you to STAY. You didn't realize that it was a habit until it happened for the 4th time. It then became more reckless. He will denounce every time he could get the chance. He'll call you names, and hurt you verbally. He never laid a hand on you thank god, but you we're still hurt.
You excused yourself, and walked towards the bathroom. When got in you cried, and cried, and cried. That's all you could do. You looked in the mirror to meet yourself with.... yourself. You broke down again, but before you can grab the tissue to wipe your tears away a sudden urge to regurgitate got to you. You threw up in the toilet, and then a knock was heard.
"Y/N you good?" Kris said, you tried to sniff up your runny nose quietly, and wipe your tears and mouth rapidly. Your response was muffled but clear "Yea.. Hey umm I'll be out in a minute" after that you heard footsteps walking away from the door.
•••
"What took you so long?" " I was peeing Jay" you say sitting down while giving that response. "Well yea if you haven't drunk all that damn water you wouldn't be peeing long" "Jay hop of her dick man" Kris said in the kitchen fixing whatever. "Kris mind your fuckin business" and with that he turned back around to fix whatever. You felt bad about all of this...
•••
Sitting in y'alls hotel room watching T.V. you wait for Jay to get out of the shower. You just knew he was gonna tell at you about what happened earlier. Sad thing was is that you were ready to face the music. Speaking of Jay he hopped out of the shower. Standing in front of the bathroom Jay is ready to blow your ears off.
"So your motive is to embarrass me" Jay threw his arms in his shirt that shows of his toned arms. "If it was Jay I would've been gone" you continued to watch the T.V. as they were cooking some type of soup. Jay stopped his movements looking crazy. "Who you think you are" "Y/N" you still was looking at the T.V. Jay chuckled, and came close to you. The sudden movement got you scared so you got up and moved to the other side of the room.
"Why are you scared" Jay said while looking at you with fiery eyes. "Jay I don't want to go through this today-" " THEN LEAVE Y/N!!!" He probably yelled loud enough for the whole hotel to hear. "HOW Jay huh???!!" " Its not hard Y/N.. Just go" and with that you walked over to your already packed suitcase, and started to leave. before you could Jay grabbed your arm. "Y/N wait"
"WHAT JAE YOU WANT ME GONE...YOU GOT ME GONE NOW WHAT" he had tears in his eyes... HE did why you should be crying not him. "I've been thinking about our future -sniffle- uh I uh-" "SPIT IT THE FUCK OUT JAY" "I want to spend my life with you" here he go.. Bribing you to stay with him... Again. "Boy bye and speaking of life have a nice one" he one again grabbed your arm, but this time you hesitated to turn around. Thinking 'I'm not gonna do this again... I can't do this again... I won't do this again' but if course your curiosity got the best of you and you turned around.
When you did there Jay was kneeling down with a big ass ring in a box. "Please stay with me I won't treat you like shit I promise to treat you like the queen you are.. Just please don't leave me" he started to cry. You were deciding if you should say yes, but you said "No good bye Jay" you left and cried. Just feeling heart broken.
••• [One week later Seoul, Korea]
At your friend house you sit there in the bathroom holding a pregnancy test that says positive. "How did this happen Y/N" your friend Aliyah asked. You thought of the angry sex that you and Jay had 3 weeks ago. "Angry sex" is all you can say. "Oh well I guess ya man Jay has to pay child support" "nah imma leave him where he at" after all that drought Jay out you through, all that mental abuse. You still found a way to forgive him. "Well I'll sign that birth certificate Y/N" your bestfriend chuckled while you nodded and laughed.
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