AUTHOR'S P.O.V.: Demi walked through her living room as Nick sat down on his bed. It was 3 am on a warm February night. And once again...they couldn't sleep.
Nick: was it worthy? (He whispered as he glanced to the ceiling with a sigh)
Demi: it wasn't worthy at all (she said as she brought the coffee mug to her lips)
It didn't take long for those memories to comeback. It wasn't new, it was already usual that they had that flashback every night.
Flashback - January, 2018
Demi: you never promised me we'd be fine (she said as her voice shook the slightest filled with emotions)
Nick: babe, I think we...need to talk about all this (she nodded and they sat together on her couch)
Demi: how are you feeling after listening to Phil?
Nick: I don't know...I don't even know what to feel. How are you feeling?
Demi: would it be too difficult to get another manager? (She asked trying to light up the mood but he just sighed, letting her know that he wasn't comfortable with the idea of joking) sorry, I just tried to-
Nick: yes, I know. It's okay, don't worry
Demi: do you think what he said is right? About us...like, ruining everyone's life if we stay together
Nick: I'm not sure bout it but, if it happened, how would we feel with it? Like...it would be our fault
Demi: we'd feel bad for some time probably but...at least we'd still be happy together
There was a moment of pure and dead silence in the house and they just looked at each other's eyes trying to read their minds. That way, it would've been easier. They'd just knew what one another thought, but life pushed us to talk about it...even if they didn't want to.
Nick: I don't wanna hurt anyone
Demi: well, me neither but we can't live our lives trying to make everyone happy. That's not gonna happen ever. If we choose to make them happy, we won't be happy but if we-
Nick: decide to be happy, the rest of the world won't be (she nodded and he started to feel the heaviness growing inside his chest cause he knew what was coming)
Demi: listen Nick, I told you once that, I would lose everything to be with you. I still think the same
Nick: no, babe, you're not giving it a second thought. You need to consider all the chances we have to lose
Demi: yea okay, we could lose but...what if we didn't lose? What if we could actually make this work? Are we really letting our opportunity go just like that? For real? (She asked with her hands starting to shake as her nerves started to increase and he shrugged briefly with his eyes fixed on hers)
Nick: I don't know what to do (he whispered and she shook her head grabbing his hand)
Demi: it's okay. I know what to do, I'll do it for us while you get used to the things that are going on right now. I'll look out for us, this is gonna work babe I promise everything will be-
Nick: no, wait...don't make promises we won't keep (he moved his hand out of her grip and ran it through his short curls as the tears started to fight to fall)
Demi: what? What are you talking about? This won't be easy but I know we can make it to the end
Nick: Demi, I-
Demi: look at me (she said cupping his face) do you love me as much as you say you do?
Nick: of course I love you, there's no one else I love more than you but I just...I don't wanna be selfish
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Skin, Heart and Mind ~ Nemi
Fanfiction"My body, my skin is yours but you don't play with my heart and don't mess up my mind" That was the thought that crossed their minds. That was their decision. "A little fun doesn't hurt anyone"
