Seeking Attention

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{Letisha's Pov}

“Public Display of Affection, the thing you hate” mariin akong napatitig sa video na pinakita saakin ni Natalie.

Too close, they're too close with each other. Almost kissing. Kung ibang anggulo lang ang nakunan ng video ay aakalain niyang naghahalikan ang dalawang to.

“PDA agad? OA ha! Pero ang swerte ng Ananchel na yan bago bago lang dito and she's already close with Devourah, hope all”

“Naiinggit ka Eralie? Edi makipag kaibigan ka din” inis na wika ko sa kanya. Pano ba naman kasi, i'm looking at Devourah together with Ananchel, the new girl, right now being too close  with each other in the cafeteria.

“Baka sila na” balewalang saad ni Natalie. Ang sarap lang talagang magreact pero hindi pwede. Napabuntong hininga na lang ako to calm myself.

“Shut up okay, let me handle this one” mabilis akong tumayo at lumabas ng opisina ng SSG.

“Explain this!” madiing saad ko habang inilapag sa desk niya ang cp ko na may picture nilang dalawa ni Ms. Wagner.

“That's nothing Sha.” kalmadaong sagot naman sakin ni Dev. Nakakainis lang parang wala lang sa kanya yung inis ko at talagang nakuha niya pang maging kalmado. Ganyan naman siya palagi. She takes things calmly and I do the opposite.

“Nothing? For heaven sake Dev! Yan ba ang nothing ha!? She's too close with you! Rumors are everywhere saying that you two are in a relationship!” nandito kami ngayon sa Women's Basketball Team Headquarter. Wala namang ibang tao kaya i'm sure walang ibang makakarinig samin, sana lang. Dahil hindi na ako makakapag antay pa ng gabi para kausapin siya.

“So what? Ikaw na rin ang nagsabi, it's just a rumors.” lalo akong nagalit dahil sa naging tugon niya.

“Yes it is, but we have already talked about this aren't we? Ang sabi mo hindi kana lalapit sa babaeng yun.Why now?” I'm trying to be calm, i'm really am.

“I did okay, it's just that I can't ignore everyone forever, I can't just push them away everytime just for you not to get jealous!” nararamdaman ko na rin na napupuno na ito sa mga sinasabi ko. Palagi kaming nag aaway but usually because of our hidden relationship. Pero ngayon it's because of a girl.
Hindi ako sanay na nang dahil lang sa isang babae ay nag aaway kami. It's our first time fighting like this just because of a girl.

“No, ofcourse that's not what I want you to do Dev.” kaagad na tanggi ko, hindi naman ako makasarili para hindi siya payagang magkipag kaibigan. Meron lang talagang bagay o tao na minsan wala pa ngang ginagawa ay natatakot kana. That's what I feel whenever Ms. Wagner is trying to be close with Dev. I feel so threatened, it's like anytime she can steal Devourah's attention away from me. And I hate this feeling because I feel so pathetic.

“That's obviously what you want me to do. Where's the trust now Sha? Where's the trust we're giving to each other, why doubting to me now? I don't cheat on you, you know that very well” gigil ang bawat pagbigkas niya sa mga salita, at dahil iyon sa pagdududa ko sa kanya. One thing she doesn't like is to accuse her of something she didn't do.

I trust her goodness. But I don't trust those people around her.

“But I don't trust that girl's  intention to you! Bakit palagi siyang sayo sumusunod ha? Do you think I am not aware of what she's doing? I'm keeping my eyes on you and that girl is always shadowing you!” Dinuro ko pa siya dahil sa inis ko. This past few days ay palagi kong minomonitor kung sino ang kasama ni Dev at ano ang ginagawa niya which is not the thing that I usually do before. Dati ay minomonitor ko din naman si Dev but not like this. Ngayon ay talagang mas napapadalas at tuwing nakikita ko siya there's always Ms.Wagner following her and I don't like it. If you ask me kung paano ko nakikita that's because I have a CCTV access.