The Love That Is No More

The Beginning Of The End

The following morning, while Yo was having a sleep in, Pha had just woken up around 6:30 and was going to check on his 4 children before getting himself ready for the day ahead. 3 of his little angels were asleep in their rooms while the youngest had just woken up, crying. Pha went to check on his princess and could smell that she needed a diaper change. What was funny is that while changing her Yiwhan had managed to poop some more and a little got on Pha's shirt. If it wasn't his child Pha would have found this gross and gotten someone else to change her but since she was his pride and joy, just like the other 3, he happily cleaned her up.

Meanwhile the 2 delievery men had just unfinished loading just before 6:30 so now all Pha's belongings, which weren't already at May's house, were now outside waiting for him. As soon as Pha cleaned up his daughter he brought the little girl to her mother as she was still crying a little and Pha figured she must be hungry. When he was sure his princess was being looked after he went to the bathroom to freshen up and get himself ready for the day. The house keeper they had hired wouldn't arrive until 9 am which gave Pha plenty of time, especially since he left at 8 am so he could be in the office before 8:30. It was almost 8 am by the time Pha was dressed and had his 3 little other blessings fed and placed in their playpen while their mother had a quick meal of her own.

In all honesty May was so blessed that Pha was so involved in their lives and did everything he could to help her out with the little ones. She was also expecting to find out in a few weeks that she was once again pregnant as Pha had yet to give her a break, claiming he wanted to have quite a large family with her. She knew Pha was more concerned with their children but there were times when Pha made her feel special. Pha would spoil May from time to time, mostly because he wanted her to keep providing him children.

Today felt like any other day to Pha and he was excited at the prospect of having another child with his baby momma. However, he was in for the biggest shock of his life the moment he stepped foot out the front door. Before his very eyes were stacks of boxers laid out on his front lawn all addressed to him, accompained with some very nasty words like Pha the asshole or the douche also known as Pha. He was very confused as to where these boxes all came from and wondered who could have sent them. As he looked over the mountain of boxes before him, he soon noticed the yellow envelope on top of a small stack closest to him. He made his way over and quickly tore into the envelope, hoping to find some answers.

Boy was he both surprised and shocked to have in his hands both Yo's engagement and wedding rings alone with what looked like to be divorce papers. There was also a folded piece of paper tucked inside which brought out Pha's curiosity. He placed the rings and papers onto the box as he opened up the paper and saw a handwritten letter. As he opened the letter, he wasn't surprised to know that Yo had somehow found out about his affair, and that he had children with this woman. He wanted to feel sorry for the boy but in all honesty, he was glad that Yo now knew the truth and he no longer had to hide in the shadows.

To Pha.

I remember the first day we met. The school year had just begun and as a freshman I was completely lost. You helped me find my way and over that year we had become close. It wasn't until my sophomore year that you asked me out and I was over the moon as the boy I had been crushing on liked me back. During high school we grew closer and closer and I was so happy that I had won your heart. You were my first everything and I don't regret that. What I do regret is ever thinking I was the most important person in your life.

I should have realised that your obsession to have a family was the most important thing to you, even more than the man who was by your side in everything. I was blinded by the love I had for you that I couldn't see the truth. I am glad that you now have the family you have always dreamed of it just hurts to know that it wasn't with me.

I want you to understand that I love you and a part of me may always feel that way, but I can no longer be in a relationship with someone who doesn't love me or even respects me. You knew I would never approve of this and that's why you tried your best to hide it from me but alas light has shined upon your darkest secrets. I want you to know that this wasn't an easy decision but one that ultimately had to be made.

I will treasure our memories with fondness, but I need to move on. I want to find someone who will love me unconditionally, who will never disrespect me in the way you have done so many times before. I am willing to give you a chance to explain yourself, to help me understand why you did all this when you knew it would lose me in the end. I am going to visit my parents for a week tomorrow, so you have less than 24 hours to see me if you wish. After that, the only time I want to see you is to get this divorce finalised. I hope it was all worth it Pha because I will never be yours again.

Sincerely your soon to be ex-husband Yo.