My Little Rebel

Chapter Twenty-one: Head over heels in love with Taylor

Alex's POV

I looked around my room seeing how empty it was before I grabbed the last thing in the room, the last thing that was left here that wasn't mine; if you had guest it I was now holding onto Taylor's leather jacket. He had left it here and let me wear it when I wanted to, I remember the time he told me I could have his jacket, I smiled going back to Valentines Day.

Flashback

"Hey get back here," Taylor complained as I giggled and got off his bed looking around as he sighed and looked over at me. I grabbed his leather jacket slipping it on and flipping my hair out before I looked around again, yes I was only in my underwear and bra and he was already naked. I know that's a shocker right normally I'm the one naked first but this time I guess I wanted to unwrap him first...damn that sounded dirty see how much Taylor is rubbing off on me. 

"Where did you get this," I asked him pointing at a painting that was hanging on the wall...the painting that would cost a fortune to get.

"My mom left it...she gave it to my dad and then he just couldn't let it go," he said as I nodded my head and then turned back to the bed. 

"Well then," I said crawling back onto the bed and then standing up as he looked at me. "I'm sorry for asking," I apologized as he nodded his head.

"It's okay," he said as I nodded my head. "You...look very sexy in my jacket," he said as I nodded my head.

"Really...you think so," I asked turning around and looking back at him as he looked at my ass and nodded his head. "How can you possibly tell when your looking at my ass," I asked him as he chuckled and gripped onto my waist bringing me closer to him and making me fall down on the bed. 

"I really think so...in fact you can take it with you so you can stay nice and warm," he said as I nodded my head and laughed slightly as he kissed my lips and ran his hand along my leg.

End Of Flashback

I clutched the jacket closer to my chest and then walked out of the room closing the door behind me, I walked to my car and then sighed and walked off down the street heading over to Taylor's apartment hoping to god that he wasn't high again. I walked up all the steps again and then took in a deep breath and knocked on the door waiting before finally the door opened and Joe looked at me tiredly.

"Hey...your early," he said groggily letting me know that I had woken him up. I tried to hide my sadness from him but it was no use, "you okay Princess." He asked me as the visual of yesterday flashed through my head making me flinch and shake my head, "what's wrong," he asked stepping closer to me and making me take a step back.

"Just...stay right there," I said as he looked at me confused. My heart broke knowing what the next words were going to be...knowing what the next words were going to do to me. "I'm...going home now and we...we can't see each other any more so I just...wanted to give you this back," I said handing him his jacket.

"You came to say goodbye to me and your afraid to get within hugging distance of me...you do realize we've been closer before right and I mean close enough that our bodies..."

"I know," I said cutting him off making him look at me even more confused and truthfully I think I could see a hint of sadness in his eyes. "Goodbye Joe," I said to him as I went to walk down the stairs.

"No...no this isn't about the fact that your leaving Demi...I know you want me so I don't understand why your saying goodbye to me," he said as I looked at him. 

"I can't be with you...I get married in a month," I told him as he shook his head.

"That's not the reason...I can tell your lying to me Alex...why are you pushing me away all of a sudden," he asked me sounding slightly angry as I sniffed and shook my head looking at him.

"I can't be with you because...well because I'm scared," I admitted as he arched his eyebrows.

"Your scared...Alex you've been with me alone for five months now and now your scared of me...I don't understand what..."

"You almost raped me last night while you were high," I said cutting him off as he let out a breath and looked at me with sadness in his eyes and regret and also confusion...it was like he was trying to figure out what happened last night or what he had done but he couldn't exactly piece it together. "I'm sorry but...I can't be here with you," I said shaking me head and walking off my heart shattering into a million pieces as I walked out the door. 

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My thoughts kept flooding back to him, kept flooding back to his eyes and his hair, his muscles, his chest, his lips, his arms even his tattoos kept flooding my brain as I spent the next month getting ready for a wedding that I wasn't even prepared for. I didn't want to go through with this wedding and I sure as hell didn't want to marry who my parent's had chosen for me...yes as you had guessed it in all honesty my parent's had set me up with Aden...how ironic right. I was now going to be married to Taylor's half brother and there was nothing I could do about it, there was nothing I could say to talk my way out of this and nothing that could be done to stop it. 

"ALEX," I shook my head and looked at my mother as she looked at me slightly worried. "Are you alright sweetie you like blacked out there for a minute," she said to me as I nodded my head and then sighed.

"Yeah...sorry mom I'm just a little tired...I haven't been getting much sleep lately," I admitted which was actually true. I had spent most of my nights thinking about what Taylor and I would be doing if we were together and yes most of the time sex was the first thing that crossed my mind, we did have sex a lot in fact that was probably the only thing we did. Well we did eat out together every once and awhile and once the snow started falling I drove him from place to place so he wouldn't have to walk, and we did go to a club a few times which I didn't think he'd want to do but then it hit me that I'd be grinding against him while we danced which would be enjoyable for him. 

"Well...what do you think," she asked me as I looked in the mirror taking in the full-length white dress that draped along the floor. It had some beadwork done on the top half of the dress and displayed my boobs quit nicely actually. I could only imagine Taylor looking at me like this...yes Taylor. His eyes would probably bug out of his head as he looked me up and down...then he'd probably pull out his knife and cut off the bottom half of my dress complain that is was to long and he needed to see more of my legs, then after that his hands would probably lift me up and sex would be involved after that. 

"I...I just," I said trying to find the words. To be honest it was way to long and the train wasn't helping either but other then that it was the perfect wedding dress. "It's amazing mom," I said as she smiled and nodded her head letting a tear run down her cheek as she looked at me.

                                                Wedding dress on the side

"You look so beautiful sweetie," she said as I nodded my head and looked at it again taking everything in. "Aden is a very lucky man," she added as I kept my mouth shut from saying anything mean or rude about him. I will admit that Aden is a nice guy but he wasn't the one I wanted...he wasn't the one that would make me happy and he wasn't the one I wanted a life with...I know...I did something I promised I wouldn't...I...had fallen completely head over heels in love with Taylor. 

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