MEMORY LOSS AU - Gone

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Hinata POV
"Sorry?" Kageyama repeated "Sorry for what?"

"I really tried" I said standing up "But I don't think I can be the person you want me to be"

"Hinata, I don't know what your talking about"

"I don't know what to do anymore! Going back and forth is exhausting and there's no way in hell that I'm ever going to remember anything!"

"What are you saying? That's it? Your just going to give up?!"

His raised his voice a little.

"Nobody's given up on you yet so why are you finding it so easy to let go?"

"That's bullshit, Kageyama! Nobody believes in me anymore! There's better things to do than to try and help me so why do you even bother?!"

At this point both of us were shouting angrily at each other.

"Why do we bother?! Because we care!"

"You shouldn't care! Why do you care?!"

"Because we know that you-"

"I know you know! The thing is, I don't know. I don't know anything!"

"Maybe if you'd just put in the effort!"

"Why should I?! I don't care about the team or about your stupid game! I don't care that I used to play or that I loved it! That's in the past why don't you grow up a little!"

"Hinata, listen to me!-"

"I'm not Hinata!"

I took a minute to catch my breath and so did he. He looked at each other intensely huffing and puffing.

"I don't know who Hinata is" I say "The Hinata that you knew is gone. The sooner you accept it the better"

He gritted his teeth and clenched his hands.

"If that's how you really feel then I'm not going to bother."

He turns around and I feel my legs start to tremble.

"I never thought of you as another person, you've always been Hinata and you always will" Kageyama says "I'm sorry for trying to help"

I fell to my knees as soon as he was out of sight, hitting my hands against the floor below me.

"Fuck!" I angrily said between clenched teeth. Between hits I said, "Why do I always gotta mess everything up?!"

After a boxing session with the concrete full of cursed and blood, I finally managed to pick myself up.

I leaned against the stairs I was sitting on earlier and looked at the mess I had made.

"Sorry" I say, apologising to the ground.

I wasn't very strong so I wasn't hurt too bad.
Not physically anyways.

As I went to get going I noticed something on the ground.
That dumbass had forgotten to take his bag.

I sighed as I went to pick it up, his phone falling as I did.

"At least zip up the pockets" I mumbled to myself.

As I went to put the phone back in this bag I saw a notification.

'Show Hinata tiny giant video'
'One link attached'

I'd completely forgotten about that.
Tiny Giant huh?
That's a cool nickname.

I sat myself down and opened the link.
It was the least I could do for being such a jerk.
Plus I was pretty curious.

A video popped up with a huge volleyball stadium, even bigger than the one we had here.

"Is that the Karasuno uniform?" I said to myself, looking as the team broke their huddle.

This seems like a pretty serious game.

I was surprised to see the person playing the position that Tsukishima and Ennoshita plays was so tiny compared to the rest of them.

"Tiny....Giant"

The round started and the other team received it. It went to their setter and someone hit it down.

Karasuno received it but only barely and made an overhand set to... the short guy?!

From what I could see he didn't seem any taller than 5'6, and there were people on that team above 6'0.

I watched as he jumped.

High.
Higher.
...Higher?!

"How is he still-"

I held my breath as I saw him sore into the air. My eyes widened and I swear my heart stopped.

He was up there, competing with people twice his size.

He wasn't just jumping.
He was flying.

"Woah!" I unintentionally shouted "That's so cool!"

The video ended and I was staring at the home screen in total awe.

Quickly, I put the phone back in this bag. (and actually zipped it up.)

I ran back to the gyms. After watching a video like that I didn't even care about my lack of stamina.

As quickly as I can I snuck back into the camp and went into Gym 2.

For some reason I noticed it was already set up but nobody really used it.

I picked up a ball.

"It's just like the one they had at the game" I quietly exclaimed to myself.

I thought back to the teams practice.
If they were alone they would throw it up and hit it to themselves.

"Alright" I said to myself getting ready.

I threw the ball up in the air and watched it with my eyes.

I smiled as I ran up and jumped.

It certainly wasn't as high as the Tiny Giant, but even if I wasn't playing in a super important event, it was almost as if I knew exactly how he was feeling.

Being up there, even if barely I was above the net, to me it felt like I was on top of the world.

I didn't have this feeling before.
Maybe because I didn't have anyone to look up to.

But now I know what I have the ability to do.
Now I know what I can achieve.

A smiled as I hit the ball, and only if it was barely it got over the net.

"Yes!" I shouted when I hit the floor.

"Feels good doesn't it?" I quickly turned towards the door.

Standing there leaning on the doorframe with his hands in his pockets was none other than Kageyama.