MEMORY LOSS AU - Gone

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Kageyama POV
I lied to Hinata that day.

Even if I were held at gunpoint, I wouldn't have the faintest clue what's going on with Harada and him.

I however, had my own business with the guy who calls Hinata, 'Shou'

On the outside, his personality isn't much different than Oikawas.

It's pouty and playful and sort of dramatic in a way. But it's also empty and kind of hollow.

I've noticed the way his face looks when he's not talking to anyone, and since I don't really talk to anyone myself he doesn't seem to notice that I'm looking.

The only time I did was earlier this year, and it was one of the scariest things I've ever seen.

His eyes glanced over to me and I felt my palms start to sweat as his cold eyes stared me down.

Until now that was the only interaction I've had with him.

Until now in my mind he's just a sociopathic troublemaker.

Until now I've found no reason to resent him...

"Kageyama!" Hinata said.

I turned to look at him.

The incident at Yukigaoka only happened yesterday, and yet he acts like nothing happened.

"You asked me the other day if I was free two weeks from now. You were a mess then so I didn't bother asking" he giggled "What's happening"

"Oh that" I said "We're having a training camp in Tokyo"

"Tokyo? Training camp? You mean for volleyball"

"That's right. I was just sort of hoping you could come along. I want to show you that video I told you about"

"Nobody's home until next month. I should be able to go I guess"

"Next month? Why so long?"

He shrugged his shoulders.

"Doesn't matter...."

When we trained today he didn't just watch. I guess he was finally tired of sitting on the sidelines.

I saw him nudging Noyas jumper shyly and asking him something.

Based on Noyas reaction I guess Hinata asked him for help, probably on receives.

It was nice to see him enjoying himself, especially while playing volleyball.

Although it was a little unsettling that he didn't play like he used to, or that even when I would set to him he didn't have the same look in his eyes.

I'd expect to look down and see the old Hinata, staring at his hands in awe and looking at me with his face practically dripping in excitement.

"Did you see that Kageyama?" He would say "Come on! Give me another!"

I would tell him that I was too tired to, but of course he wouldn't listen and get set up again.

"That was really amazing!"

He gets tired way too easily now.
Maybe it's from lack of training or maybe he's just stressed.

It pisses me off that he's not even trying to get back into shape.

Soon enough he'll be as lanky as Tsukishima and he won't have the height to back it up, so he'll just be thin I guess.

When morning practice concluded and we were getting changed, Hinata told me that he needed to talk to the principal and that I should meet him in class.

"Are you sure you know where the class is?" I tease.

He pouts at me.

"Of course not!" He says sarcastically before walking out the door.

What a dork.

Hinata POV
What a jerk!

I get lost once and he has to hold it over my head forever?

I scoff and kick a rock.
It lands by someone's feet.

He looks at me and I stop walking and step back when I see who it is.

"Shouyo?" he says in a normal tone.

"Harada" I say "Sorry about that"

As he takes one step closer, I take a step back.
He sighs.

"Look, I'm really sorry about yesterday" he says rubbing the back of his head, "I didn't mean to scare you I just wanted to see if you'd remember anything, I was only trying to help..."

His tone is genuine, but I couldn't say the same for his words.

"It's ok" I say, "Sorry for freaking out... and for Kageyama"

I adjust my posture and walk up next to him.

"So you're still playing volleyball, huh?" he says, obviously eyeing me quite thoroughly.

"Kind of..." I say "I'm not really in the right shape to play if you know what I mean..."

I've been told that I've gotten really weak from the amount of time I spent not training.

I've thought a few times to at least try, but there's no point if I'm not going to use it for anything.

I know Kageyama really wants me to play again, but I don't even know what I'm aiming for anymore.

"You've never really been in shape to play any kinds of sports you know that?" Harada says softly poking my thin arm. "He never let you"

"Who never let me?" I ask.

I guess he didn't realise he was just talking out of his mind, because his soft expression turned firm when he looked up at me.

"Sorry..." he said "Just forget it"

Like I did everything else? Should be easy...

Kageyama POV
Hinata was already in the classroom when I walked in.

Of course, I already excepted that.

What I didn't expect is that he was talking to the very same person I'd told him to avoid.

I had to clench my fist to stop myself from lashing out at him.

Being angry wasn't going to do me any good now.

I sighed and sat down at my desk.

I'm not sure if Hinata noticed me, put I felt Harada throwing eyes at me every chance he got.

I tried listening in on their conversation, but I was pretty far away.

I could hear Hinata laughing occasionally, or Harada teasing him.

They seemed real friendly.
Maybe a little too friendly...