Reach The Stars (EDITING)

Epilogue

Ali's POV

"No! That's not true! H-Hindi pa patay ang mommy ko!"

Halos maglupasay ako sa sahig ng ospital nang ideklara ng doktor na wala na ang mommy ko.

She had a cardiac arrest. Overworked dahil isa siyang attorney. Hindi na kaya ng katawan at puso niya ang pagod.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Marquez." Umiiling na sambit no'ng doktor kay Daddy.

"N-No." I said, almost a whisper.

I rushed to my mom's side, trying to wake her up. Trying to convince myself that it's no true. She's not dead yet. She can't leave me like this. I still need to make her and Dad proud. I still have to be an attorney like her.

"M-Mom, wake up, please. W-Wake up. I'm here. A-Ali is here. So, please, w-wake u-up. P-Please, M-Mom. Don't leave me. Don't leave me like this. M-Mom!" I screamed.

Naramdaman ko ang paghawak ni Dad sa kaliwa kong balikat, consolling me.

"Ali, that's enough. Your mom is gone."

Napatigil ako sa pag-iyak at napatingin kay Dad with disbelief in my eyes.

"How could you say that? How could you say that my mom is gone without even stuttering?! Without even crying?! Do you even love her?! Do you even mourn for her?!" I exclaimed.

Looking at my dad right now, wala man lang luhang pumapatak sa mga mata niya. It seems like he's okay of what happened to my mom. I couldn't any slightest pain in his face right now. How could he even look at me straight into my eyes without even showing any emotion about Mom's death?

"Alison." Saway niya sa 'kin.

"Hindi dapat namatay si Mom e." I voiced out, trying to wipe my tears away. "She could've lived. Kung...kung hindi lang natin siya hinayaang magtrabaho nang magtrabaho, buhay pa sana siya. She wouldn't die like this!"

For the first time, after i-announce ng doktor na patay na si Mom, I saw pain in Dad's eyes. He's looking at me with those painful eyes. Like, he doesn't like to see me like this. To see me in so much pain.

"Ali...I'm...I'm so—"

"My mom..." I cut him off. "My mom is not dead. She's not dead."

Nagtatakbo ako palabas ng ospital. Dad is calling me but I didn't even bother to look at him and just continued running away from the hospital. I just wanted to clear my mind. I just want to stay away from everyone. I want to be alone.

Sumakay ako ng bus at naupo sa may tabi ng bintana.

My tears didn't bother to stop from falling even though people are looking at me and wondering why am I crying. I just let myself cry until I reached my destination.

Pinunasan ko muna ang mga luha ko bago ako bumaba ng bus na sinasakyan ko at naglakad papunta sa Southvill Park. Naupo ako sa isang bench at tumitig lang sa kawalan.

I deeply sighed.

I looked at the sky and remembered what my mom told me when I was six years old.

It's still too early to see stars from the sky, but I still tried to lift my right hand up, extending it to the sky like I'm reaching something from it.

Isang luha ang tumulo mula sa kaliwa kong mata.

I slowly lowered my hand and tried to wipe my tears that are falling again.

I looked into nothingness. "I don't wanna reach the stars, Mom. I don't wanna accept the fact that you're gone. It's so sudden. What am I supposed to do now that you're gone?"